Closing the chapter & leaving the past behind.

This is a long shot...

I was dealt a life with many significant physical and emotional traumas which left me lacking a lot of love for myself. In my younger years I ruined my body in reflection to those traumas with self harm, it was the only way I knew of coping with the pain I had inside. I've spent the last few years on a beautiful journey of healing, I've grown, I've changed my whole life around and I've learnt so much along the way in regards to loving myself and finding my worth. It's been a tough road emotionally and mentally but a very fulfilling purposeful one. My regret is that I never understood back then that my body is my temple and I only get one - I will never harm my body again. Although I've healed a lot of what's inside, my scars will always be there as a reminder of the past and the things that happened to me. They leave me embarrassed, and full of regret, I want to feel free from them and confident in my skin. I have always been very concious of keeping them covered up around friends and family, they are holding me back. I'd like to have them hidden away, behind beautiful tattoo art pieces that will tell a story of the healing journey I have been on. I want to take that negative attachment away when I look at them. I don't know if I will ever have the funds to do this, I was diagnosed with a chronic severe pain condition(central sensitization) 3 years ago which has stemmed from my traumas, and due to this I am unable to work and earn good money. After being diagnosed I spiralled down into depression, PTSD, and anxiety and over the last few years I've been in a fight to recover mentally - I've come a very long way thankfully. Currently I'm studying a certificate in psychology and counseling, I hope to become an adolescent guidance counselor and life coach.

Having my scars covered up with my art will change my whole world and close the chapter for me. My aim is to raise approximately $1000 for my pieces of art, if I am unable to raise this amount I will use what money is available to make a start on it. If the amount is exceeded, surplus will go to animal rescues and also suicide awareness nz.