Stay in NZ with my Children

I have been living in NZ for 10 years, I am from Scotland. 5years ago I was blessed with twin boys. One of my son’s has been diagnosed as Autistic.

I was with my children's father for a number of years, however sadly it broke down. I have tried to apply for my Residency visa for years, with constant challenges. After the seperstion, I was declined for a Residency application. I then couldn’t afford the battle to stay, and the mental toll was becoming too exhausting. I was still trying to recover from trauma and keep up energy to fight to stay, it all became too much. I applied to move back to Scotland with my children, to be with my large family and friends. I would have full support in my country and no more visas. After going through the court process, I was denied my case to move my children to my country. The Judge said I could go back to Scotland, however it would be without my children, OR I could find a way to stay in New Zealand and the children will get to remain in my day to day care. To keep my children, I am back to square one, trying to fight for a Residency visa. I have been quoted around $10,000 for visa fees and employing a competent Immigration Lawyer to fight my complicated case.

I am not the kind of person to ask for help, let alone financial help from anyone. I have exhausted my family's funds and am unable to scrape together the funds needed to fight to be with my children. I am becoming desperate. Any help will be appreciated, thank you.