Zayn's 'AML' Fight

These last 10 days have been amazing with Zayn home. Zian has enjoyed every minute of it, and to see his face light up every time he gets home and sees dad is still here, melted my heart and saddened me at the same time. Because although it’s not forever, he will be away again, for 4-6 weeks and Zian’s sadness breaks my heart. He loves his dad so much, and one day this will all be a distant memory.

I get asked a lot, how am I coping? And it’s always the same answer, I don’t really know. A beautiful friend said to me today “God will give you the strength” and I know this, from first hand experience, because without God I would crumble. And don’t get me wrong, there are times, especially at night, when I do crumble, and break into a million pieces, but the sun always rises again, and we take it day by day.

Zayn is receiving a very expensive drug called Mylotarg which works together with his Chemo to fight off leukaemia cells, and to destroy future ones on Thursday morning, and then we are straight back into chemo that same night.

We are both more nervous this time around, Zayn because he’s been through it and remembers how the chemo made him feel, and me, because of how Zian and I will cope for another 4-6weeks.

However we are so so hopeful that this is his second and last round of chemo. A lot of prayers have gone into this, and I honestly feel at peace, and some sort of “knowing” that this is it. Although we haven’t had results back, I am so sure that his cancer is gone already and that we are only doing this round to be on the safe side.

And if it comes down to it, and its not gone and we have to do more, then we will take it on, one day at a time.

Here’s to Zayn kicking cancers butt, and absolute strength as he goes through chemo again.