Our lives - From Adele
18 April 2024In the time it took for a lymph nodes to grow we tried to live our normal lives as having a now 20m (Harper) and 6m (Taylor) is full on. Shane is unable to work as I cannot care for our babies on my own. I have days that I couldn’t lift with my left arm, can’t walk due to back aches, too tired to get up.
We celebrated my 37th bday by spending the morning at the park, afternoon jumping off the harbour bridge with Shane (thanks mum and dad for the gift) Dinner with my parents,good friend Dale,Shane,Harper and Taylor. Best day ever.
Now Harper can say animal names and sounds it was time for our first visit to the zoo. Something I’ve been looking forward to since she was born. Memories I will cherish.
As hard as it is, I’ve had no choice but to come to terms with the fact that it would be a miracle to celebrate my 40th. All I want to do is make my husband and babies lives as easy as possible after I’ve gone. It hurts me more thinking about how much grief and pain they will suffer. I won’t be here to help them through the most difficult times of their lives.
One day my babies will forget about me. They won’t have any memories only videos, stories, photos, letters etc. I will do everything in my power to be here as long as possible in the hopes that they will have their own memory of their biological mum.