"If you're brave enough to say GOODBYE, life will reward you with a HELLO". - Paulo Coehlo
Sorry for being quiet, no update or sound. It's been a tough few days wondering around. Last Thursday we collected 22 eggs from Meggy Moo, and waited patiently for the next day to see how many were taken by Calvin's super swimmers in the tube. Fridays phone call was a shock and disbelief, only 4 eggs fertilized, all the others just couldnt break through. They said the swimmers were swimming, so fast and hard too. Just didnt break the barrier and so couldn't get through. 5 days past and all our hope was on these 4 embryos, to mature and and develop. The phone rings with an update, not one we wanted to hear. That 3 embryos did not make it and only 1 was left . We prayed, hoped, rain danced and cried, all we needed was just one embryo, just one to survive. The phone rings today, we lost the last one. Our eyes are shocked, our heart skips a beat, numbness in our bodies and fogginess when we speak. Sobbing and heart sore for the joy was ripped off our face. This can't be happening, what the hell, I must be dreaming about all of this. Sadly not, this is where we are at. We will grieve today and for days to come but we know that this isn't the end of our journey, but only the next chapter to come.
When I'm extremely happy or heart broken I write in rhyme as I express my feelings like so.
Calvin, Megan and myself would like to THANK EVERYONE for you love and support. This is a hump on the path way and we will carry on. Right now we need to keep strong, grieve with family and talk about our experience.
This is not the end for Baby McLuckie!!
Once we have had time to gather we will update you all on what the next step will be.
Thank you so much
Genda & Calvin McLuckie