Bon Jovi Is Trying To Push Me Off A Launchpad, But I'd Really Like To Construct It First. Please Help.

My name is Robyn and like a little bird I NEED to spread my wings and take flight. I have a back story with my fair share of tragedy. I have crazy hard times and empathy of a great depth. I have had to struggle through my ability to only care (noun) when I haven't had the ability to care (verb) for others. I have had to sacrifice and had to put others first. I have a crazy hard work ethic and ingrained morals of others that keep telling me "you will not ask for help!"

That is a part of who I am. But I keep on evolving and I'm loving the journey with all its ups and downs, highs and lows. I am still here and I am still trying to do this thing called life.

And now I have plans, exciting plans to get off the ground and ways that I can take what I have learnt in this life and help others. And I have a love of the story Bon Jovi tells. It's My Life. It's Now Or Never. I Ain't Going To Live Forever .... so please help me pay for my launchpad now. I don't want to keep being the woman that stays at home minding her business and has to go back to boiling kidney beans. It's necessary, but really REALLY time consuming.

I know what I value and I want to apply it life outside of my home also. I want to be the person who brings something brilliant that someone wasn't expecting when I come into their day. I know I have it in me. I want opportunity to do new things outside of my four walls, outside of this town and I realize I need financial freedom & independence to do that. Please help me get started. Invercargill & New Zealand I love you and will always represent you well, there is just so much more I need to explore on the horizon.

Inside my four walls there has already been great success (in an intangible way ie: no money earned, no financial freedom gained). Beyond being a (*backing myself here* really good) Mum and wife, I have already started "MrsRobbieP" (the chaotic jumbled mess of my life, organized in a way I want it to be), www.andpause.org (where I sell my creative concept of time and connections). I have "Little Robyn, Black Dress" (that would be me, the delivery lady of all of the above - and I hope inspiration for others of what adventures can be had without excess baggage - literally and figuratively) in addition to "A Little Robyn Told Me" (the writer and reviewer of her explorations with the hope it helps and inspires others) and Picking Our (Or My) Place (creative inspiration to travel and explore with photos maps, videos, learning and a deeper more philosophical way of looking at the world around us).