Botched Surgery

Kia ora All

I would not require a full Gender Reassignment Operation I would only need a Corrective Operation it is similar but not as in depth as a Reassignment Surgery. Basically correcting a birth defect. I don't have to be perfectly formed but some form of procedure to alleviate the pain and infections would be amazing for me and I do look forward to a pain free day.

As far back as I can remember I as a child growing up with my 3 sisters and brother yes I knew I was different even from such a young age I did not know what was wrong because women who were pregnant in the 70's their babies were not tested for this 47XXY Chromosome Abnormalities as they are now. But I have very fond memories of playing dress up in girls clothing and always pinching my sisters dolls so I knew I was different and I am so blessed that my Mother & Father just allowed me to grow into the woman I am today with no pressure or adverse treatment nor any bullying from my siblings so I was very lucky to be of been born into the family that I love. When I went through adolescence as a child in school I was bullied alot and it hurt deeply but eventually when I was 17 years old my Father asked me to have a Chromosome Test and this is how I was diagnosed. I remember going through the worst time in High School in Australia always on guard preparing myself for the next onslaught of hatred and abuse both physical and emotional and I continued to go through this early into Adulthood with many attempts at Suicide and Self-Hatred and I blamed my Parents I would always throw it in my Mothers face 'why didn't you abort me it would of been a lot easier for me' and I know that I hurt her but I was so confused, hurt and death seemed to be the only answer for me. One of my sisters said to me one day, if you do this! commit suicide then you will walk for eternity on your own with no one. For me to remember this comment 30 years later is a constant reminder of how close I came to being alone in 'death' and I am glad I listened to her. It has not been an easy path that I continually walk on to this day but I am truly blessed that I have a fantastic support network of Family and Friends to help guide, advise and help me along the way. I will update as time go's on... I hope that the universe blesses everyone who helps me towards my cause and I truly thank each and everyone who donates to me, Even if it is $1 that $1 is still enough to go towards my goal in helping myself and others in my situation.

47XXY Klinefelter's the name Klinefelter comes from the German Doctor who discovered the condition in the 1940's is a variant of the Intersex Genders, Intersex is an Umbrella Term which covers many variants of Intersex people. A Hybrid is a combination of 2 or more genders binded together. Hermaphrodites are born with both genitals male and female and whilst I am not a hermaphrodite I do consider myself a mixture of a Klinefelter's Hermaphrodite Hybrid Woman being that I was born with 47XXY Chromosomes amongst other variants of my condition. Generally in humans each cell normally contains 23 pairs of chromosomes, for a total of 46, 22 of these pairs are referred to as autosomes they look the same in both Males & Females the 23rd pair are the Sex Chromosomes and they differ between a Male and a Female. Chromosomes are carriers of DNA, the hereditary material. Men & Women usually have 2 sex chromosomes, For instance a Female has (XX) Chromosomes and are called homogametic sex whereas the Male has (XY) Chromosomes and are called heterogametic sex. Then you have varieties of these and the one I was born with is 47 (XXY) Typically a person who is born with Klinefelter's (According to many websites including Wikipedia) Only males are born with this condition it is very rare and some people do not know that they may have it, If you are born with it the person in question generally has breast development, small penis, short or even tall in stature (height), little facial and bodily hair growth and are sterile meaning they cannot have children, It is only passed down on the Male side not the Females. It is interesting to read online so many "Professionals Opinions" on this condition as I find myself quite in disbelief that it surprises me that these people who do not have this condition can make certain claims on it how the person is born with it to how they live their lives to informing people like myself how we should Masculinize ourselves. It has even been suggested that people like myself who have it are Personality Impaired, Have Learning disabilities especially in reading and writing and in language general learning. I find these findings quite pathetic really and very outdated in my own opinion as speaking for myself yes I am tall and yes I have my own breasts no surgery or implants and this is where I am somewhat different to my other Klinefelter's counterparts is that my body produces it's own Estrogen (Female Hormones) as normal Klinefelter People do not have this. And I do believe this is where the Variant is with me. Quite literally I cannot take Synthetic Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) like Trans-Women (Male to Females) as it will literally kill me. It would be an overdose of Estrogen in my body as my Hormone levels are of that of a normal adult females. Now as I have explained I have had 2 Operations. 7-8 years ago I started having excruciating pains in my groin and so it was discovered that I had a rather large growth which turned out to be a testicle I only had the one and it was the size of an orange and it needed to be removed before it became cancerous. So my then Endocrinologist removed it. The surgery was only to take 35 minutes in & out same day. I was under on the operating table for 3.5 hours and stayed 2 days in hospital. When I came too I spoke with the Endocrinologist and he stated to me that it was the hardest operation that he has ever performed on someone given that the mass was quite large and so he cut through nerves etc that in his words "In hindsight perhaps I shouldn't of cut through" but he did has left me in chronic pain for the past 7 going on 8 years now since it was performed along with random infections of which were mean't to stop once I had healed. But the infections haven't stopped. I am also numb in that area permanently. Then approximately 3 years ago in order to minimize the infections and or stop them recurring I underwent the knife again to remove some excess skin in order to help rectify the endless pain and infections from coming back however, I ended up with more chronic pain and frequent infections to this day this has not stopped. So now I am finding myself quite literally in limbo neither male nor female in the physical form. Even though I feel female in reality I am not and even though my Surgeon/Endocrinologist had stated if I ever needed him to talk to or health related I could go back to him any time I needed too. Since these surgeries were performed I asked my GP for a referral back to him approximately 1 year ago and he flatly refuses to see me as he stated to my GP there is nothing further he can do for me. Admittedly I gave up on ever finding inner peace being happy within myself. I had always had an inner flame that would I guess feed off and it would give me the inner drive to keep fighting for the end result of living a more productive and happier life to be happier within my own skin and I am to a degree. Being that I do not have a penis as such it is classified as an enlarged clitoris and is ultra sensitive and it is by far not in a good sense it is extremely painful but I have a cream that numbs this area so I may go about my normal daily activities in life.