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  • Dominique has lost the fight

      27 May 2017
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    After a stiff fight Dominique has passed away. Please support us in this difficult time.

    A new chapter without my cherished wife begins now.

    Love You Always

    Your Husband, Keegan, Declan and Sage...

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    • 27/05/2017 by Sam

      So sorry to hear Richard. Im here for anything you need done at any time 0272366710. Love from the Blades family.

    • 29/05/2017 by Nicki Tregurtha

      I am literally in tears reading this. I'm so sorry for your loss, and that your children have been left without their mum. I didn't know Dominique well, but my son Josh is in Declan's class at school. I will drop you guys a meal some time during the next week. Regards Nicki, Shane, Josh, Keira and Rylee. Ph. 02102723689

  • Tough Night Over

      27 May 2017

    Last night was pretty scary. We managed to get some sleep -

    We saw the doctors this morning and Dominique is not of the woods yet. They think she may be in hospital for at least a week.

    During the week they also need to see how the cancer is responding to the Chemo. The new issue we face is the cancer on the brain. Ironically Chemo cant get to the brain because the body has a natural barrier to the chemo - go figure it can stop Chemo but not cancer.

    This means that they will have to do some targeted radiation therapy to try and kill what is in the brain. Normally for a blood clot they give you medication to thin the blood and let it work - relatively simple solution. The cancer on the brain is susceptible to hemorrhage if you use blood thinners.

    One thin you learn with cancer is that you are continually making trade-offs between different evils.

    Take a steroid and suffer side effects of the cancer produces its own horrid ones. - The doctors literally have to ask you to choose your poison.

    Take a steroid means needing to take stuff for indigestion and heartburn.

    Taking some medication for nausea causes constipation - so you take something for that but you are actually quite susceptible to upset stomachs so you need to take stuff for diarrhea.

    Someone asked me this morning if my kids are OK. The reality is I have to assume they are. Again cancer making me choose between my wife and my kids. They equally need my help right now.

    On the positive side- the doctor said that what happened was near fatal and the fact that Dominique survived is a miracle. Right now we take any miracles on offer - and focus on the positive.

    Please share our story with people. Bowel cancer is silent killer and knowing about it could save lives. It is one of the biggest killers in the Western world. It puts families and everyone they know under severe emotional and financial strain - if we can help one family avoid this by telling them about it then we have done our part to stop this.

    Lets keep the ball rolling...

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  • Current Prognosis

      26 May 2017

    The next 72 hours are going to test us like never before. The doctors scanned Dominiques brain and the cancer has moved on to the brain. The normal treatment for blood clots could cause bleeding in the brain because the cancer there would cause this.

    This morning I was at work talking about how to work together to make things work well etc - now we are in a race against time and hoping that we make it through to see the next few days.

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  • Trying to Get The Fund Raising Moving

      26 May 2017

    Its being great to see how people have supported us through this. I personally am starting to take some strain though - but I need to refrain from complaining. While sitting in the Emergency Department watching as my wife is poked and prodded and the stress she is going through - I have no cause for complaining.

    Today Dominique is in hospital with a blood clot on her Lung. Its a strange irony - she is breathing fine, but the blood is not being oxygenated so she is battling to breathe as we would normally expect her to.

    My kids are at home and a range of people will be looking after them, but their mom wont be back for a while. I have managed to kind of keep it together, but I can see things starting to crack now.

    I am appealing to people to share our story in their own networks so that we can try and keep the ball rolling for our fund raising efforts.

    I have reached out on my networks, on twitter, LinkedIn and any other places where I thought people would listen. Now I am asking people who have kindly helped us - to spread the message to as many people as possible and hopefully give our efforts the boost they need.

    We are feeling the pinch and its starting to take its toll.

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  • Back In ED Again

      26 May 2017

    Dominique has been rushed to hospital by Ambulance today. Dont really know whats wrong and we are waiting to find out. This has been a tough week for us. Trying to remain calm and positive but this week is taking its toll on us.

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  • 4th Chemo No Go

      23 May 2017

    22/05 was a day I would rather forget. Dominique has not being feeling particularly well. Its kinda hard to tell if it is related to the Chemo, the cancer, the drugs, emotional stress or a combination of any number of things.

    Monday morning I felt Dominique's forehead as I left and told her to check her temperature. I never really occurred to me that 20 minutes later I would be stepping off the train and making my way back home. She had a fever and with Chemo patients this means you go straight to hospital - no panadol no trying to get the fever down - Just straight to hospital - Do Not Pass Go, Do Not Collect your $200..

    So we make a few calls, let people know that the kids need help and we don't know when we will be home. Pack an overnight bag - because we really don't know what's about to happen and off we go.

    When you get to the Emergency Department you do basically get fast tracked, because there is a real and present danger of things like Sepsis, pneumonia and a raft of other things that may rear their heads.

    After a number of tests, x-rays, ECG's etc we were almost ready to leave. The team still had to check Dominique's Portacath for infection - but this involves a qualified nurse/doctor doing this (ie qualified in Portacath access). Problem was nobody seemed clear about what size needle to use (we were as surprised as the medical team - the paperwork we were given following surgery to install the Portacath all the information fields like - Where the Portacath was located and what size needle (they MUST use) had being left blank).

    It was up to us to ring around and find out... This was pretty frustrating. Removal of the needle when they were finished also involved us phoning a specialist nurse on behalf of the Emergency Department and getting her advice about whether or not to leave it in for the Chemo (that was supposed be done on 23/05 but now rescheduled to the 30/05).

    I struggled with the idea that the Emergency Department could not access or didn't have access to critical information like - the size of a needle they needed.

    This whole experience was the first time we landed up in ED while Dominique was on Chemo - so we had no idea what to expect and also had no idea about the information we were expected to know.

    Anyway after what was an extremely long day we arrived back home at around 7pm.

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  • New Routines

      17 May 2017

    We are heading for the fourth Chemo Treatment and so far steady as she goes. Dominique has struggled with some side effects including hair loss, what I can only describe as brittle skin, insomnia and a range of other things.

    This has lead to us having to change various drugs as we go along so without fail we now go to hospital, do the chemo, get the chemo bottle attached for the 46 hour slow release and then off to the pharmacy for the next batch of medication or something to try and alleviate a new side effect.

    Bowel cancer is a really widespread problem and people can read about it on http://beatbowelcancer.org.nz/new/

    June will be Bowel Cancer Awareness month in Australia. We found that bowel cancer really is a silent killer. You may only start presenting symptoms when the cancer has already morphed into a stage 4 cancer. Even going to the doctor for regular check ups and blood tests wouldnt help.

    If we could change things about how we engaged with doctors this could include things like - asking the doctors to regularly do full spectrum blood tests (so ask them to check everything), if you arent feeling well and you cant get a straight answer on what it is - DONT accept the diagnosis - always insist on further tests and scans. Early detection has to give you a better chance of survival.

    Dominique is generally doing better, but still struggles with energy levels and really trying to adjust to a less than normal routine + lifestyle.

    We continue to try and raise awareness through our networks to try and raise funds and are relying heavily on people we know to pass our story on to others in their networks.

    We are now booked for a CT scan in early June to see how the Chemo has progressed. So in a way its good because we know Dominique is feeling better so we are hopeful for a positive news. I cant help but approaching this with caution and while I am confident the treatment is going in the right direction, I am still scared what they will find.

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  • Chemo #1

      18 April 2017
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    So after what seemed like ages, the first dose/round of Chemo is done.

    I personally felt like a massive weight had being lifted - because now the treatment is underway.

    We know that this isn't a cure, but we will buy as much time as we can.

    Dominique coped pretty well with the Chemo so far. She struggled more with the side effects of her recent surgery (for the PortaCath) and the impact on her body.

    Learning to sleep after a surgery is an art form all on its own. Add the bottle attached to your chest for the Chemo you get to take home with you for 46 hours along with some side effects from drugs that help you avoid symptoms of the Chemo and its a recipe for perfect storm - this leads to Anxiety, loss of sleep and I can see it was taking its toll on Dominique.

    I have learnt to sit around in the Bedroom and keep myself occupied - to keep an eye on Dominique. To be honest - lounging around is one of my skills - just never thought I would be putting it to extensive use.

    Well add doing washing, cleaning and other household chores I find I am not the best at and perhaps lounging around is not the best description of what I do.

    The next round of Chemo is on ANZAC day so we are basically just running a holding pattern here.

    Hopefully when they do the blood tests in preparation for the Chemotherapy (they check the blood every time), they will see some improvement in the Liver function - this is the one they see most worried about - and its understandable given the extent of the Cancer on the liver and the nature of the liver itself (its not like they can just replace it)

    So Brown Family 1 - Cancer 0.... Now fingers crossed the Chemo starts doing what its designed to do and kick some Cancer Butt...

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  • PortaCath

      11 April 2017
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    Today the medical team squeezed Dominique in to have a PortaCath installed.

    Basically a pipe that gets inserted into the jugular and enters the one ventricle of the heart. (Alarms bells all over the place with the potential number of things your imagination can come up with that can go wrong)

    Anyway testament to the fine doctors we have available it went off without a hitch.

    Notably the gears of the health system do turn pretty slowly when you are looking for high speed delivery in what I would best term as the Instant-Age we live in.

    Leaving the house at 9am for an afternoon procedure, booking in at the hospital reception, then checking in at the Surgical Admissions reception, then meeting a nurse, then going for additional blood tests, then reporting back to a junior doctor then waiting to be seen by another nurse and then off Dominique went to the next place - no support people allowed.... she was on her own.

    It had being indicated that I should see her within 2 hours. So you can imagine how much of an internal panic I was dealing with when 5 hours had gone by. By the time we leave the hospital from the 2 hour procedure - we have spent 10 hours there.

    Like many things in the hospital you cant ask one department a question and get an answer that only another department can give you.

    You learn to go with the flow (even if it feels like a circular reference)

    Once again we get given a prescription for medication that we need to get somewhere - generally we would need to find an after hours pharmacy or wait until the next day.

    The weird thing is that this is a recurring theme. Visit to hospital - prescription for the next batch of drugs and another lump sum of money not really expected.

    And all this to occur again because two days after the PortaCath we are going to go for Chemo (we think - because we need solid confirmation) - so another day we need to set aside. Another batch of caregivers to find for our kids- but it doesnt end there - Saturday while many ppl will be dreaming of the Easter Weekend and what that may mean to them - we are back to have the ChemoBag removed. Usually done by a nurse at your house, but this is symptom of the public holidays.

    Its a lot to deal with and often quite frustrating, but we know we need to deal through it because the means justifies the end. The business process improvement nut in me tells me that there is definitely enhancements that could be made to lower the turnaround times for cancer patients...

    But to be fair - this didnt pass my mind when I didnt consider this to be something I dealt with.

    We missed Poppies "blastoff" at kindy today as she finishes there and gets ready to start big school...

    Cancer is many things but it not only robs you of your quality of life, but it starts stealing important dates from you:

    So far

    Wedding Anniversary (not just ours - many of the people in our immediate family have their anniversaries around now - so all taking a back seat)

    Poppies Blast Off from Kindy

    That being said - we are determined to look this straight in the eyes and fight the fine fight.

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  • TreatMent Update

      10 April 2017

    After a false start on the treatment with the PICC line that didn't go to plan - we are now slotted in for a PortaCath (will check if that's correct) surgery on Tuesday.

    Chemo is scheduled for Thursday (assuming all goes well with the surgery)

    It was a tough weekend because the doctors were unsure how soon they could get the surgery scheduled. Images of clocks ticking down and us wondering how if doctors were talking about limited life expectancy they didnt have a Plan B to get the Chemo going in the event that a PICC line failed.

    The particular procedure needed is normally only done on Fridays... this complicated things because Friday is good Friday and no operations on public holidays.

    The thing is from the day they found did the ultrasound that found the problem to the date they start Chemo is already almost 2 months in so this leads to a high degree of anxiety.

    But as above things now appear all in place to get things going. The next thing is to hope the Chemo takes hold.

    We have had lots of encouraging stories of success and hang on to those in order to remain positive.

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  • Hospital Today - Not Quite As Planned

      7 April 2017

    We are becoming old hat at going to the hospital. We are ticking of a list of places in the hospital we have been. Today they put a PICC line in to prepare for chemo.

    Its still pretty scary, but at least we feel like its moving forward now.

    I thought I would update this just to try and show how uncertain things are - we had to stop the procedure to put the PICC line in due to complications. Without this line they cant start the Chemo.

    We now have to wait for a surgery date for a surgical procedure to put an alternative in. This is difficult to digest, because each day that goes by is a day lost. It also means that all the best laid plans to shift work around and get time off have just gone belly up.

    Please pass our story on to people you know as we continue to try and raise money to cover costs. Our family is relying on your networks to grow the funds raised. THANK You for your kindness.

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  • Diagnosis Explained

      3 April 2017
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    The oncologist really brought the reality of the situation to the fore for us. She explained why they took the biopsy from the liver and also how the liver had being affected by the cancer.

    Now we see why the life expectancy is so short. The liver has a real risk of shutting down if we cant get the chemo to work.

    The other reality was that although the cancer had infected the liver and lung and was still rapidly growing in the colon and liver this didn't mean it wouldn't spread elsewhere. Another reason why treatment was needed sooner rather than later.

    There is tremendous support, but the reality of the matter is that this is going take a tremendous toll on us financially and treatment will only slow things down.

    There is no financial assistance because the threshold for this is pretty low. Assistance to cover travel, unpaid work, parking at the hospital, childcare, house cleaning, clothes to fit the patient and an ever growing list of unexpected costs, even GP visits just to refer you to the emergency department. Some costs are pretty nominal but it all adds up and fast.

    When trying to plan for the worst case scenario - funerals cost upwards from 2500 dollars for a cremation and nothing else and then I suppose the sky is the limit.

    I am attaching a two "artists impressions" of what the cancer currently looks like on the liver and lung. These I have drawn from memory, but will show people what is basically going in (excluding the tumour in the colon) - This post includes the liver. The gallery shows the lung. This is how the doctor basically depicted the problem to us on a notepad. This really drove it home.

    The scary thing is that they keep growing at what I would suggest is an alarming rate.

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  • Oncology Visit

      31 March 2017
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    After a tough night in the Emergency Department we met with the Oncology team at Wellington Hospital. If medals were given to super people - these people would have had them many times over.

    It was really frightening and hard to hear it from the people who are in the system to help us. Dominique and I felt that in many other wards people went to get fixed. When it came to cancer it wasn't as clear as that.

    The Doctor was clear that without treatment Dominique had 3 to 6 months left to live. Surgery and Radiation is not an option, so Chemo is our only way forward.

    Targeted therapy isn't available unless you fund it privately - so now we are working out how to get the Chemo done.

    Its not just a matter of a doctor giving you a pill that you take at home. For aggressive cancer they have to employ an aggressive treatment plan. And that's what they have put forward for us.

    This means a fair amount of planning because the Chemo takes 4 hours each time at the hospital, and Dominique will not be able to drive up and down on her own. It also means that any side effects or unknown issues will need to be managed on an as and when basis.

    What is clear we have a plan now and even though its scary and we know we are only basically buying time - its time to roll up our sleeves and fight this head on.

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    • 31/03/2017 by Katie

      Hi Richard, a friend of our family is a GP and he has tons of knowledge about diet and supplements that can help people going through cancer treatments. He's truly amazing at what he does. His name is Dr Matthew Shelton and he is at 10 Steyne Avenue, Plimmerton, Porirua, 04 233 8015. he may be able to help. Good luck over the weekend. Take care, Katie

  • Back In ED

      30 March 2017
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    Tomorrow we are going to the oncologists. Hopefully we can understand the way forward better. Thing is we are back in Wgtn ED because Dominique is in pain and our doctor sent us straight to the hospital. We are waiting for an emergency CT scan so things are up in the air again. Gotta keep focussed and positive

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  • Overwhelming Kindness

      28 March 2017
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    Today someone I work with dropped off a present for Poppy. It wasn't just a present - it came from her kids whose heartfelt kindness shone through when they donated items they had being gifted to my daughter to try and help her in this difficult time.

    It took every ounce of me to stop from completely falling apart at such a heartfelt beautiful gesture. I am posting some Pics of my family so people can see who we are - sometimes crazy, sometimes a little crazier.

    I also added some pictures of us to the Gallery here. For now its all about remembering ---

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    • 29/03/2017 by Katie

      Such kind and gracious words. My kids are delighted to have been able to help in their own small way. Please reach out if you need a cuppa and a chat or anything else. Always happy to help. Take care and keep strong.

  • Coming to Terms With What We Are Facing

      27 March 2017

    Dominique almost needs constant supervision at the moment. Google is a bit of a double edged sword. I googled what various stages of Cancer existed and they classify them to Stage 4 (this being what I would suggest is the worst) and we are well within the definition whereby the cancer has spread to Lungs, Liver etc. I am still hopeful that we can fight this and we try to remain positive.

    My oldest son came running to my wife and I as I struggled with her as she fainted in the shower - its something I wish he didn't have to see, but I think he is working out the seriousness of what is happening and like the good guy he is - he tried his best to help us as I tried to revive her. If I could take away this whole mess I would - but I know I cant.

    My daughter realizes that something is wrong and keeps reassuring my wife that she will be OK.

    It still feels like a nightmare we cant escape from - but we have to keep focused and positive.

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  • Hospital Visit

      24 March 2017

    Today Dominique is having a liver biopsy done. This is scary on several fronts but hopefully will help us understand our treatment options better. After a sleepless night trying to comprehend what is going on - again almost pinching ourselves to try and wake from what seems like a really bad dream. Today we are going to do our best to remain positive. - What we have learnt quickly - is a lot of the time we spend in the system is spent waiting for the next thing to happen. Doctors, Nurses and other medical staff are fantastic - NZ really has a top notch medical system.

    I think we are ready now to fight this fight - #CancerCanBeBeaten

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  • Each Day - One at a time

      21 March 2017

    When you have being married for what seems a lifetime and always provided for your family. Always somehow sorted things, even when they got really hard - it dawns on you how helpless you are when there is nothing you can do to help your wife. Trying to stay strong while watching someone you love suffer is taking every ounce of what I have to keep going. I can only imagine what other people go through in situations like this and hope that somehow we get through this.

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  • Thank You

      17 March 2017

    We have being flooded with people offering help with kids, food, meals and just coming to chat with Dominique to keep her company while I am at work. It still sinking in and our kids are taking things pretty hard.

    We are trying to focus on each day - and to remain as positive as possible.

    Thank You

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  • Keep Positive

      14 March 2017

    Today we went to see the next doctor in a seemingly endless chain of doctors. The cancer appears to be extremely aggressive and advanced. If you could see the look on the doctors faces when they try to tell us what can be done you would know how concerned they are. At best without Chemotherapy we are talking months. We are hoping and praying that if the oncologists are going to give Dominique Chemo that it slows the cancer down enough.

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    • 14/03/2017 by Kelly

      Keep positive you guys. Am praying for you. Xx

  • People Are Awesome

      13 March 2017
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    We have being overwhelmed with offers to help us and support. We will never really be able to express enough thanks to the people who are helping us.

    I thought I would let people know about my kids -

    Keegan - is 13 and has just started college. He wants nothing more than to be a You Tuber

    https://givealittle.co.nz/cause/youtuberstart

    Declan - is 12 and wants to join his brother in producing and running a YouTube channel

    Poppy (Sage) - is almost 5 and I think she wants to be a princess.

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  • Page Kicked Off

      10 March 2017
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    I kicked this page off today. Pretty much head in hand and pride aside I wanted to do this. I told my wife that we were embarking on a journey where we really should not focus on the destination. I know other people are going through difficult times so don't want make this all about me... How hard it is to just admit to yourself - here is a problem you cant fix. Especially when you have spent your whole life fixing problems and trying to improve things. - I always said Teamwork Makes The Dreamwork... now I am looking to the wider human team to keep my wifes dreams and hope alive. Its my anniversary today and its difficult to digest what is happening. People are great though- offers of help coming from lots of people

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    • 13/03/2017 by Ian

      Can you let me know your mobile #. I would like to catch up. You can txt me on 0272228488

      Cheers

      Ian Green