Closure
25 July 2023
いつも何度でも
It was while listening to this song that I said my final goodbye to my mom.
This song always reminded me of her. I can't recall if I watched Spirited Away with her for the first time, but we definitely watched it together a few times.
Anime, especially Ghibli movies, always had a strong emotional impact on me because of this connection with my mom. Whenever I asked her to watch them with me, she always said 'yes' without hesitation.
One of those moments made it clear that she did it for my sake. We were almost at the end of Ponyo when my sister walked by the TV and asked, 'Are you guys watching this movie again?' I was surprised because I had checked with my mom before we started if we had already seen it, and she replied, 'Yes, we have, but you enjoy it so much.'
Many other memories come to mind, but the feeling of empowerment and the drive to pursue my dreams, which brought me to where I am now, all started with Spirited Away. The movie had a profound impact on me, giving me dreams that seemed beyond my reach, and from that point on, it didn't matter how outside of my reality they were, my mom always supported and worked hard to help me get there.
For those of you who know me, whether really well or briefly. I hope I made you feel the love and kindness my mom taught me to live by.
'No need to search the land, nor sail across the sea
'Cause it's here shining inside me, it's right here deep inside me
Thanks to you I've found the light, and it's always with me'
