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  • Week Seven - Finnish National Champs

      4 April 2019
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    Kia ora whanau and friends! We’re in the last weeks of my trip ahh! Crazy how time flies. I hope you have enjoyed reading and keeping up with my journey. This blog has been a wonderful creative outlet and weekly task for me, I’ve totally found a new love for writing through it… This week we had the Finnish National champs take place at a lovely little resort called Iso-Syöte. They ran competitions for Moguls, Slopestyle and Big air. If you’ve seen my social media platforms recently you’ll already know the scoop, but I wanted to write a post on here regardless.

    Straight from Italy I arrived home in Kuusamo on the 27th of March, I was exhausted from travelling and my shins were not in a good place after my days on Mottolino snowpark (read my last blog post to know more), so i’m sure you can imagine I had a great night's sleep that evening! In the morning we headed up to Ruka (where i’ve been training) because they have an awesome new landing air bag set up for us to use through spring. There were camera men and media crew on the slopes from the Finnish TV news, radio and paper to report about it. This is the first time an airbag like this has come to Finland, and better yet its the latest model in landing bag technology… This will be an incredible opportunity and tool for the development of current and future snowsports athletes in Finland to learn and perfect new tricks. A couple of our boys from the Ruka Freeski Academy were among the few to be first to test it out whilst being filmed for the news. Due to my shins, I chose not to hit the bag and just take my day slow and easy, and although it would've been fun to feature on Finnish telly, you got to listen to and respect your body. Nonetheless It was great to be there to watch and support the crew

    That night we headed to Iso-Syöte, about an hour away from Kuusamo, the drive is pretty boring at night, however, our drive certainly became interesting and memorable when a good press on the breaks was required due to a herd of over 30 reindeer across the road (classic NZ sheep moment but 10 times cooler)!! They didn't run or seem bothered by the oncoming car, but instead just did their thing and calmly crossed the road in front of our shining headlights. I wish I caught it on video. My friend Kian and I were staying with some friends for the weekend in a gorgeous log cabin surrounded by a snowy forest (total movie scene vibes). Our friends are a lovely young girl and her father, from Estonia and I met them at the previous competitions around Finland. I’m truly thankful for their kindness and hospitality allowing us to stay with them.

    First day on the slopes at Iso-Syöte was a practice day before the slopestyle comp. The sun was out, temperature was a lovely 6’c and the wind decided to join the party too… All of this contributed to what were very strange and frustrating snow conditions, making the course super challenging. The snow was very sticky and slow in most parts, but icy and fast in others… The speed for the jumps changed every run, no joke, every run! You would never consistently land in the same place, one run, you would knuckle the jump, next run you’d make the landing and another run you would hit the deck etc... There was no getting it right. But I kept pushing, because there's always a chance the course conditions could be the same on competition day, so you have to work with what’s in front of you. After a difficult morning in the park, we had some lunch and decided to keep skiing give the course another crack. At this point I was hitting the bigger of the two jump sizes switch (backwards)... One run I went in confidently, did a switch 180 and knuckled the jump. Next run I went into the jump with the exact same speed, switch again, but this time… I over shot the jump and missed the ENTIRE landing. I sent myself right to the flat ground, the gutter, in between the first and second jump. The crash was pretty big, both skis ejected, my body rolled, I was covered in snow, helmet and goggles wonky, the full package, I got wrecked… Luckily I had so much time in the air, I actually remember thinking how I was going to crash and what was the best possible crash landing I could do… My switch 180 over rotated into a 270, so I was coming down in the air side on, perfect position to roll from, and that's what I did, when I landed I tucked my head and tried my best to just let it roll. Some young girls came to my aid, picked up my skis and helped me collect myself. In the moments straight after the crash, my body was battered, but feeling in more shock than pain… Until, I noticed a lot of pain and throbbing coming from my right hand, I looked down and there was a huge lump on my lower thumb/wrist area turning blue/purple. As the pain escalated, the tears were flowing and I skied to the bottom as fast as I could.

    We found my coach and headed to ski patrol. The patroler took a look at my hand and advised we go straight to hospital for x rays, the pain was agonising. At this time I tried to call my mum to let her know what was going on, it was around 2am New Zealand time and facebook said she was active. But 7 calls later, still no answer...The nearest hospital was about half an hour away. I felt terrible because my coach was in the middle of warming up a group of about 15 young boys to ski with and coach for an evening session when I came along and he had to just up and leave! My timing couldn't have been worse! When we get to the hospital they gave me some pain medication and put me in a temporary cast from a bandage and splint. They told us that they weren't doing x rays there so we had to go to the next hospital which was back in Kuusamo, about 45 minutes away from where we were… Inconvenient again I know! Drama!... Once we were at Kuusamo the hospital wouldn't let me see any doctor or get x rays until they had a financial confirmation document from my travel insurance basically saying that the costs would be covered. So I ring travel insurance, i’m not even going to go into details *rolls eyes*, but in short, it was frustrating, annoying, complicated, was on the phone for almost half an hour, speaking english to my coach who would translate and speak finnish to the hospital staff and vise versa, all of this whilst still having a swollen hand, in pain and crying. Suuuuuper awesome look… Eventually I saw a doctor and had x rays taken, the pictures weren't clear enough, so they told me to come back for further examination with a different machine on monday. In the meantime I was put in a cast and the diagnoses was a possible break in my hand. Side note - Funnily enough, whilst we were in the waiting room at the hospital, guess what came on the tv?... The news reporting on the landing bag at Ruka so we go to watch the footage of my friends hitting the bag!

    Saturday was competition day for slopestyle, I had a difficult night sleep beforehand thanks to the cast and pain. However I was still determined to compete and planned to make my final decision based on the snow conditions of the course after skiing through it a few times. This was an interesting time for me because I normally ski with poles, but due to my injury I couldn't hold them so had to ski without. I felt sketchy and off balance when I was trying my trciks, sounds silly but If you ski with poles in park for so long and then suddenly drop them, you’d get where i’m coming from. The course conditions were not great, but they were at least 80% better than the day before. The weather was tough, we had strong winds and passing clouds, affecting the lighting on course. The snowpack was icy which could make the speed quite fast, but I felt a lot more in control of myself going into the jumps today. I decided to go ahead with competing because It would be my last comp in Finland, it was national champs, I was already so invested and most of all I wanted to prove to myself that I was strong and capable to push through with this injury and take on the challenge of skiing/competing without poles… During all 3 of my runs the weather was super testing, but for what I did have control over - my mind and body, I didn't let the weather affect me. Although, my hand and the thought of crashing or falling on it did make me nervous, but thanks to my drive and determination, somehow I was willing to take that risk… I mucked up my first run. Second run I put something simple down, so I had a safe run in place. And 3rd run I tried the tricks that I was wanting, but on the first jump I came up short and knuckled so I smashed my hand on the ground when I landed… This threw me off for the rest of the run but I never fell over so, again I put something down even If it wasn't what I was hoping for...Unfortunately because of my injury I wasn't a 100% on my game, which is ok because things like this happen, it’s apart of the sport and despite what happened I am so proud of myself for pushing through, landing some runs and walking away with another podium placing, 2nd place. So stoked!

    The next day they held the Big air competition, I chose not to compete because of my injury, but I did stay to watch and support those who did compete. At the end of the day we had prizegiving and I had a neat surprise being called up to the podium for another 2nd place, I was unsure what It was for (because they were announcing everything in finnish) until my coach shook my hand and said this was the overall podium. Which meant that because of all my podium placings at the last 3 competitions I managed to grab 2nd overall for the 2019 Finnish National slopestyle series. This was unexpected because I thought I wasn't eligible for this award since a im not from Finland, but what a wonderful surprise! I am so happy! To make my day even better - all weekend a lovely young girl named Peppi whom I met at the last competition was there competing in the kids events, she must be around 9 or 10 years old… At the last comp, I won some brand new goggles but, I really didn't need them so I chose to give them to her instead and it warmed my heart to see how happy it made her. After prizegiving, Peppi’s english wasn't so good but her mum asked me if I could be in a picture with her daughter because the Peppi wanted to take photos with me! Ahh this made me feel so humbled and fuzzy inside! We took some pictures together on snow and straight after, another young girl wanted to take pictures with me too! So cute! They both left with huge smiles across their faces, same with me. Again, it just goes to show how being kind to others can impact people's lives and your own. It’s such an honor to be looked up to by these young girl skiers, I know that If there was someone like me, an older female skier wearing funky colours, talking to me, skiing with me and reaching out to me when I was their age I would have been so inspired. I can only hope that I do the same for them. Through these competitions I have met so many wonderful kids and parents, many of them asking me at prize giving if I will return again next year, and I truly hope that I can.

    On Monday I had my final check up and xrays at the hospital, and thank the Lord everything came back clear, no break, the cast is off, just a nasty hematoma is what we’re left with. But I want to say that I am so incredibly thankful for this injury and how minor it is. Yes it was inconvenient to compete with but man, with the amount of height I flew with off that jump, my crash could have been so much worse. Easily I could’ve hit my head and gotten concussed or even done my knee. But this!? This is the best thing that could’ve happened and for that i’m blessed.

    That’s all for my competitions here in the northern hemisphere, it’s been an amazing time with some fantastic results. I’m truly thankful to have had these opportunities and experiences in both the Finnish comp circuit and FIS competitions in Italy. Now, four shiny metal cups are in the post and on their way back to NZ! Wahoo!

    Thanks again for reading and for all your continued support throughout this trip. I’ll be home soon, but I couldn't have been here without you!

    Stay tuned.

    Love from,

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton :)

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  • Week Six - Travelling to Italy & stepping it up

      2 April 2019
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    Welcome back to another post! I've been super busy here, so apologies for being late. This one is about my exciting trip to Italy!

    Starting off with a late night flight from Kuusamo to Helsinki, I traveled with my two coaches and the accommodation choice for the night was these random sleep pods in Helsinki airport. What looked like a good idea online, I don't know if I would choose them for an overnight stay again. They are definitely set up for convenience over comfort. It felt very futuristic/space like and I made a complete fool of myself in the morning. Dressed in pyjamas as you do for sleeping, I woke up and headed out to the bathroom to get changed. The bathroom was not private to the sleep pods so it was just a normal public airport bathroom. And of course I forgot that airports are generally really busy so here's me 6:45am freshly awake dressed in baby blue, easter bunny covered flannel pyjamas from the warehouse with bright blue hair looking like a psycho person with at least 15+ people staring at me. Great amusement and great start to the trip.

    Next up we flew from Helsinki to Munich, Germany and picked up our rental cars. Once in Germany we started our 5 ish hour drive down to Italy. Before crossing over into Austria we stopped off in a tiny German town and ate lunch at a classic little pub. The person serving us did not speak english so it was a perfect opportunity to practice some of my german language, I can tell I did well because my lunch came out correct and man was it delicious!! Beautiful traditional chicken schnitzel with spätzle and a side salad, the best! My tummy was extra happy that day. The rest of the drive held stunning views of the alps through Austria and Switzerland. I loved seeing the huge mountains and lush green grass, but most of all the buildings and old churches were so cute.

    A long, one way at a time tunnel through a mountain took us from Switzerland into Italy. Livigno was a small town but bustling in the streets, from the looks of all the people, you could tell it must have been a great day skiing! Our hotel for the next two nights was lovely and the staff there were so kind, once we had taken our gear to our rooms we headed out for some dinner, on a hunt for pizza of course! We found what was a very busy and full restaurant in town and I ate a delicious calzone filled with ham, cheese, and mushroom - the first taste of Italy was good.

    Our first day skiing was spent hitting the landing bag up in Mottolino snowpark. The sun was beaming down from the bright blue skies at a toasty 13’c, what a difference from grey and cold Finland!? Suddenly we needed to change our goggle lenses and wear sunscreen on our face! Spring was definitely in full swing and the views were stunning, nothing like i’d seen before. After skiing we went on a nice afternoon stroll in town finishing off with sitting inside an amazing little church right by our hotel. It was warm, quiet and peaceful inside, my spirit felt so calm sitting in there having a moment to be silent and reflect. A week on from the attack in Christchurch, this church was a perfect setting to just sit and be.

    Day 2 on the mountain it was time to start hitting the course for the upcoming competitions. I would be competing in two back to back slopestyle comps on the weekend both my first ever FIS and Europa Cup competitions. A big step for me, these comps would be at the high end for my skill level, it will be challenging and I knew that, but it wasn't impossible, it was time. The set up had two rail features at the top, 3 jumps (a choice of two sizes) finishing with four rail features next to each other and you choose one to hit. My goal for the day was to go over all 3 jumps confidently. I chose to hit the ‘smaller’ of the two jumps (which really were not ‘small’ at all!), these are by far the biggest jumps I had ever hit. My mentality was in a good place, I felt confident, was having fun, it was scary at times, but by the end of the day I had not only gotten the speed on lock for all three jumps and was hitting them comfortably, but I spun over them too. Super successful day of progression. Another stunning day of weather, last run I skied down in my Tshirt. Me and some friends enjoyed a late lunch at a mountainside restaurant in the gorgeous sunshine, I ordered the classic and simple spaghetti bolognese, best i've ever had (sorry mum and dad, yours is still good I promise)!! That evening we moved into a house with the Finnish national team athletes on the other side of the valley in a small village called Trepalle. Later, we went out and registered for the comps, collected our bibs and listened to the riders briefing.

    The next day was ‘Official training day’ for the comps, all athletes had to wear their bibs to ride the course. The first thing I noticed when I got to the top of the course was the change in energy compared to the day before… Yesterday was a fun and chill environment in the park, but today there was this overpowering energy of pressure and seriousness, I personally didn't like that because it changed my mood from what was happy and excited because I had such a productive day yesterday making me confident coming into today, to nervous and anxious. The weather also affected the course conditions which was not ideal because my day was then spent trying to learn the speed for the jumps again. This quickly became frustrating and painful, I kept knuckling and hitting the table tops of the jumps all day long. My body was so battered from coming up short that my physical state of pain, plus emotional state of frustration turned into a panic attack at the bottom of the course. I managed it the best I could, breathing deeply, trying not to focus on the pain in my shins and overwhelming pressure. But remembering that I am alive, skiing at an incredible resort and more than capable of achieving what was in front of me. I kept pushing and tackled the tasks I had left for the day head on. I had to start hitting the first jump switch, I did it twice with a crash in the mix from hitting the table top yet again. At this point I had to listen to my body and stop. I hated that though because I did not complete what I set out for the day and stopping without finishing what I aimed for makes me feel disappointed and unsatisfied. I spent time alone in the cafe talking with friends on the phone, an absolute teary mess I let my anxiety get the better of me that day. Nutella crepes before skiing back down to the house and remembering all the things I had achieved the past 48 hrs made things a little better. Once I got back to the team house, I got changed and walked up to an old church to spend some time reflecting (It was a sunday also). I sat alone in the church for about 45 minutes just listening to my own worship and praying. I’m really glad I took that time out for myself and well being. That night I cooked dinner for the team (about 10 of us in the house), this was a super awesome space for me to express some creativity and like i’ve said in my blogs before, showing kindness to others is a great pick up for yourself. I truly believe in that and this act of hospitality and kindness not only distracted me from my anxious thoughts, but set me back in a healthy headspace to go to sleep.

    Competition number one, 25th March. I woke up feeling physically sick and anxious, I didn't sleep well and woke a lot earlier than I should’ve. I tried all sorts of things to feel better and get back to sleep, listening to music, drinking water, praying, laying on my shakti mat. Nothing was working, my negative thoughts were so loud. Thankfully me and the two other girls had two hours at home to just chill and get ready before we needed to be up the hill. We had breakfast (I couldn't eat properly from anxiety), I put on music in the house and had some fun dancing around. By the time we left the house I was feeling 80% better to when I woke up. The park chairlift was about a 10 minute walk up hill from our house, a good warm up before skiing. We had about 45 minutes of training time on course before our judged runs, I was focused and on game, getting about 4 practice laps in before we started. My head was in a good space because I decided to stop caring, sounds negative but I mean it in the way that I was so focused on what others would think of me, caught up on the outcomes of my runs, the weather and all sorts of things I had no control over… So as usual, when I let go and had fun, the experience was 10 times better. The weather did have an affect on the course that day, we had some strong wind that was difficult to deal with at times, affecting things like speed as you ski towards the jumps, but I didn't let it get to me. I landed both of my runs clean, keeping it simple, stylish and doing tricks I know I could land every time. I didn't enter these comps to make finals, win or get amazing results, these were pure experience and a chance to see the international comp level in person. To be honest, I had a fantastic first comp - placing 8th out of 12 women (not last to my surprise)! The run I put down, was not the run I set out for on this course but I had to let go of that ‘ideal run’ and expectation over myself because it became damaging to my mentality. Both of the Finnish girls made finals (top 6 out of 12 advance to finals) for that competition and one even landed 3rd on the podium, so I headed to prizegiving with the girls and coaches to support. Overall I left the day buzzing and so proud of myself. That night I cooked for the team again which made me super happy.

    Competition number two, 26th March. Today I woke up feeling nervous again, but not to the extent of yesterday. Again we had 2 ish hours at home to chill and get ready which was so nice. Having that time takes off a lot of that initial comp pressure. I managed to get down some brekkie this morning, we listened to music again and I spent some time packing my things, as today we were heading back to Germany after the comp. Same as the first comp, we had 45 minutes of training on the course, I was feeling comfortable, confident and just ready to get it over with really. The wind was still hanging around the course, a bit stronger than yesterday with some clouds and low light in the mix too. I landed my first run safely, but I knuckled the 3rd jump and missed my grabs so was keen to clean things up in the second run. Now, a side note… all week everyone had been struggling with speed on the 3rd jumps, it’s a different kind of jump to the others and requires a lot of speed and pop to get over the knuckle. All week I couldn't get a 360 over the knuckle, but I had been wanting to do a 540 over that jump the whole time. So for my second run I was very determined to complete that goal. The wind was strong but my head was stronger, My spins were clean, I got the grabs and landed in the sweet spot for the first two jumps, going into 3rd I tucked hard and went completely straight with a big pop, I set the spin and not only did I get the 540 but I landed it deep in sweet spot!! I couldn't believe it, my mind turned to jelly and absolutely farted because I seriously couldn't believe I got the spin I had been wanting on that jump all week, in a compp run too!… and that’s when I messed up. Instead of going into the next feature switch because I landed switch, I reverted (turned around). I’ve never reverted in a comp, and this was the worst comp I could’ve done it in aahhh!! Like I said my brain farted and I was not thinking cause everything goes so quickly in a run… The next 10 minutes after my run I was so stoked, on cloud 9 that I landed my run clean with grabs, didn't knuckle any of the jumps and got the 540. (Keep in mind this is the BIGGEST course i’ve ever skied before, so to even be going over the jumps without spinning is so insane to where I was mentally and skill wise last year, let alone a month ago!?). Frustration struck me when the live scores came up, I knew that I would get points taken off for turning around but I did not expect what I got. They gave my 2nd run 0.00, so no points at all, even though it was miles better than my first run. I was shocked. But I had to remember that I wasn't here for good scores and placings, my mission was experience and that’s what I got, as well as a couple lessons to learn from. My result from this comp was unfortunately based off my first run, due to my own silly mistake, so I ended in 10th place out of 12 women.(Still not last though?! So that’s a plus)...

    In conclusion, the first time competing in FIS with a NZ flag next to my name was a rollercoaster of emotions but incredibly enriching more than anything. I learnt so much from this little trip, I’ve taken away new skills, grown so much in myself, caught up with friends, new and old, so I want to shout out to a couple of people. To my coaches for the incredible support and guidance, you two are amazing and I’m so lucky to work with you. My friends on course and in the park for encouraging me and making the comp experience extra fun. The Finnish national team for being so welcoming, trusting me to cook for you and letting me be apart of your gang for a week. And most of all my Grandpa Holger for financially assisting me to make this whole opportunity possible, I love you and am truly thankful.

    Thanks again to everyone who has gotten me here, and to you, yes - YOU! For reading this bunch of baloney and being interested in my journey, thank you. I feel so blessed to have gone to Italy, eaten amazing food, skied at a renowned resort, gained FIS competition experience but more importantly gained more life experience, learnt from mistakes and ultimately have grown more as a person, an athlete and grown stronger mentally (again) through this challenge. SO MUCH GROWTH AND PROGRESS. Mentally, physically, spiritually. I love it... Honestly I am humbled and will continue striving for more.

    Thanks for reading - Stay tuned.

    Love from,

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton.

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  • Week Five - Hate and fear will never win.

      19 March 2019
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    Hello friends and family. What a week. Like many kiwis, i’m still struggling to comprehend the horrific acts of hate that took place in Christchurch towards our muslim community. Emotionally strung out is almost an understatement. I have zero tolerance for such acts and feel truly sickened by what’s happened. However, the way that Aotearoa has responded to this terrorist attack has been an incredible display of our best attributes, love, compassion, kotahitanga - unity, solidarity and more. Seeing my social media flood with articles, videos, pictures of vigils and tributes held across our nation brings tears to my eyes with every post. And that gives me such pride to be a Kiwi. Our responses have been more than appropriate, infact spot on. We’ve brought communities and people together that may not have otherwise interacted, we’ve sparked conversation towards change with the racism, xenophobia, islamophobia and white supremacy that exists in our country. Yes, it’s heartbreaking that it took an event like this to wake everyone up but, we’re coming together to move forward and do better for our future. Jacinda Ardern has been exceptional with her actions of empathy and leading with maturity as an example to other countries, and what an outstanding example we have set.

    The start of my week was great here. I came back to Kuusamo, where i’m based, absolutely buzzing from the last competition. Monday I had a rest day after the big weekend, but Tuesday/ Wednesday I was motivated and on my grind making progress in Ruka park (where my training has been based). I skied confidently through training and felt so good. Thursday the weather was pretty crappy, but I went skiing by myself anyway and rode through the park for a bit of extra training as I prepared to head to another competition on the weekend.

    Friday I woke up feeling a little anxious but super motivated to get on it. I had a four hour drive ahead of me to a new ski field, followed by training for the comp on their course, pretty much as soon as I got there. I started my day with a shower, packed my stuff, still feeling great. Just before starting to make breakfast, I opened my phone and my friend broke the news to me. My heart sank, stomach shut down, I froze and just began to cry. I was totally shaken up reading through articles and posts on facebook becoming completely consumed in what had happened. Suddenly, I had 10 minutes before I needed to go, so I rushed and finished packing my gear, got dressed, tried to collect myself and hopped in the car, off we went… During the car ride, my coach and I talked through things a little, as the day progressed, so did my social media, filled with statuses and articles about the attack, there was no escaping this reality and it felt heart breaking. I had no clue how I was going to compete on Saturday, let alone ski that afternoon with this on my mind.

    As I started skiing, I tried my best not to think about the shooting, it was very challenging. The course was already quite testing, the jumps were bigger than the last comp, same with the rails so everything was becoming uncomfortably hard, but I pushed myself a lot, I knew I had to if I was going to put down a run the next day. When I finished skiing after a long session I felt numb and so fatigued. That night I prayed for the victims, their family and friends and NZ as a whole. I fell asleep fast due to tiredness, but my sleep was restless, in and out of deep sleep, likely due to stress and all the emotions I was trying to process… Not ideal before competing.

    Saturday I woke feeling physically sick and anxious. The only thing I could get down for breakie was a smoothie. I knew this was not a healthy mindset for competition. Once at the resort we started skiing and training on the course, I tried hard to get thoughts of the attack out of my head, but my heart couldn't help feeling such grief. The day felt as if it dragged on forever, I didn't end up doing my judged runs until about 3:30pm. By this time I had listened to a whole lot of worship music and prayed for peace in my mind and energy for my body, I felt physically exhausted and emotionally drained, I couldn't believe I was still skiing. I seriously had to suck it up and tell anxiety to get lost. My anxiety was using my fear and sadness towards the terror attacks against me. Mum helped me to remember and recognise my privilege in order to compete in a better mindset… Facts were, although I was feeling such heavy emotions, I was not Muslim, I was not unsafe, I was not in NZ, I was far from it. My emotional response was valid and natural but at a competition it was up to me to push that a side, show who’s boss, not let it control me and above all, not let fear win.

    In the end, I put down 3 awesome runs, with some massive tricks over those jumps landing myself in second place. My coach was sure I was going to take out the top spot, that really didn't phase me, although it would’ve been nice… For me the most important thing was that I could put aside my worries and ski through what has definitely been a dark weekend for NZ. Not only did I ski through crappy weather conditions where my energy was completely off...I landed fantastic runs that I was so proud of. A podium position will always be a bonus for me. The real prize is landing what you came there to do. A massive part of what got me through was the amazing support from my coach but even more so - showing kindness to others. I encouraged and showed love to my fellow competitors and young girls around me, I gave two girls somethings that I had but they needed more than me. And was even told by a parent that I inspired her daughter. Even though I can’t physically help out and assist in the communities in New Zealand, I chose to help and create impact with what I had around me. It’s moments like those that really lift me up and feel such happiness.

    A four hour drive later, we were back in Kuusamo. I decided before going to sleep that I was going to go to church in the morning. I wanted to be in a place of worship, for comfort and a space to continue processing my feelings. This was a scary step, entering a new place, doing it alone, but I knew it was necessary for my well being and journey of self care. Kuusamo is a small town, so from what I could see on google in english, they had one main church, the Holy Cross Church. From pictures and reading online I knew this was a very old church, and likely quite traditional. In the morning, it was snowing beautifully outside, I listened to my own worship music before leaving my apartment. The church was a 20 minute walk through the fresh snow. When I was about 10 minutes away, the church bells started ringing and suddenly people emerged from their homes and walked towards the building. I sat alone, near the back of the church which was so stunning inside. I was clearly the youngest person there by a long shot. The service started with a hymn sung to classic church organs, I was overwhelmed with emotion listening to the singing that I just sat and cried, and cried and cried some more.

    As the service continued it was clear, this was the most traditional church setting I had ever attended in my life, and not a word of english was spoken. It turned out to be a communion service too, I personally didn't take communion but rather, sat calmly and curiously observed their procedure. It was beautiful. Both of the two priests hosting the service were women, so refreshing to see, especially in such an old school, traditional setting. At the end I was greeted by one of them, and I asked her if she could speak english, to my luck she could. I expressed my appreciation for their service and church despite the fact I couldn't understand anything. She asked me where I was from, when I said New Zealand her facial expression changed instantly, she knew exactly why I was there. I cried, she hugged me and made me feel so welcome.

    Walking home from the service I felt so thankful and proud of myself for attending. Not only did I take myself to a sacred, safe space in which I needed, but I got to witness my religion through a new lens and foreign language. I got to see God moving through people and a community that was not my own, and I was apart of a service completely different to my upbringing in Christianity.

    This week has been huge… Like many others it was filled with lessons, new experiences, success and heartbreak. My love goes out to our Muslim whanau and Nz. I am with you in spirit.

    Thanks for reading - Stay tuned.

    Love from

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton.

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  • Week Four - Mindset

      12 March 2019
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    Tena koutou katoa, hello again everyone. This week has been roller coaster of emotions - highs and lows. In the beginning of the week I was struggling with a lot of self doubt and lack of motivation due to pressure of upcoming competitions and not progressing enough to meet my personal expectations. Emotions like these can be hard for me to come out of, especially when my close circle of friends and family aren’t here in Finland. However, when flicking through Instagram one night, I came across a friends story promoting ‘The Self Love Club’ podcast, hosted by Bel Crawford, a radio presenter on NZ radio station ZM. I looked into it and promptly started listening as I cooked my dinner. Each episode I have listened to has been so inspiring and motivating. It was the exact wake up call I needed. The podcast often talks about how you can’t love others until you love yourself and this made me realise how truly unkind I am to myself when disappointed, making my anxiety stick out like a sore thumb.

    The important date this week on March 8th, being International Women’s day was a turning point for me. I made an Instagram post declaring that I would start the journey towards loving myself and being kinder. International Women’s day is super significant to me, not only because I am a woman but because a huge part of my dream in skiing to inspire and be an example to young girls, change the world’s view of women, particularly in this sport. Encourage girls, to follow their dreams, try freestyle skiing, be strong, courageous and ultimately lift up the women around me, showing that we are capable of greatness... But how could I achieve such a dream when I fail to show myself that same support? Which brings me to my next point of motivation… March 9th, a notification came up on my phone of an Instagram post I made 2 years ago on the 20 year anniversary of the tragic death of legendary rapper Biggie Smalls. I posted a quote from him which states “We can’t change the world unless we change ourselves”. Reading that in that moment for me was like the ultimate confirmation that it’s time. I dream of changing the world through my platform of skiing, for women, social injustices, tangata whenua and so much more all whilst achieving my own greatness. But the quote is right, I can’t begin to achieve such things with a mindset of fear and doubt. Change is necessary.

    Going into the weekend we drove 8 and a half hours south for a competition to a place called Sappee. A beautiful drive through snowy trees and new city’s, I listened to the podcast a lot and we had a compulsory donut stop of course. On Saturday I spent my day skiing at Sappee and checking out their course for the competition. The conditions were not the best when preparing for an event. The course was hard packed ice, and a cloudy overcast day caused the light to be flat, making visibility difficult. These conditions can be dangerous if you’re not careful, something that would normally put me off. But I was so hungry to get things done that I jumped straight in, listening to some aggressive (Rage Against the Machine, a mix of Rap and House) music, I had my head in the game. I trained hard on the course for almost 5 hours with the icy conditions and flat lighting truly testing my abilities and mindset. With dedication, perseverance and belief in myself I had 95% of my run ready on the course for Sunday by the end of the day. Massive effort and the most productive day I had skiing in almost two weeks. I was chuffed.

    Side story - On the way back to the accommodation we noticed some ruins across the road, so we decided to have look. It turned out to be the beautiful remains of a church built in the 1500s. The breathtakingly stunning structure had no roof, but the surrounding walls and seating benches in the church still remain. A sign said that they tried to refurbish and extend the building at one point, but the development was stopped when they discovered that the original stone structure was too weak, so instead of tearing it down, they left the building be. Wonderful decision in my opinion.

    Sunday morning I woke up motivated, had breakfast and listened to another Self Love Club episode as I got ready. I was feeling happy and confident in myself. Nerves were still evident, but rightfully so, as this would be my first competition for 2019 and first time competing outside New Zealand. I had messages of support from friends and family which added that extra sparkle for the day. During warm up I listened to some worship music and prayed for peace to calm my nerves, something I like to do before a competition and in a time of stress. As practice started I skied through the course confidently listening to up-beat music, same mix of tunes/genres as Saturday. I had a couple falls, but didn’t let that get me down. Before practice was over I had my run down 100%, such a great feeling! And I also made friends with a lovely Finnish girl, we got along so well, making mine and her day extra fun (everything's better with friends, especially women supporting women). When it came to the judged runs, we had 3 each. My first run was great I landed everything clean and felt amazing. Second run, I stuffed up, but nothing I hadn’t experienced before, it didn't phase me on my wave of happiness. My final run was definitely the best, I landed everything perfect and even added an extra trick at the end. I walked away from that feeling like I was physically glowing with glitter!! I put down the exact run I wanted, to the best of my ability, which filled my heart with such joy and pride for myself. To top it all off, I placed second and left with international comp experience, a new friend and a huge smile!

    Moving forward, my weekend goes to show that we are truly capable of anything we put our minds to when you fully back yourself. All it takes is some self care, love, a leap of faith and confidence! I have now been in Finland a month, with one more month left to go. I plan to dedicate some time to myself each day, with purpose. Do something that makes me happy... Here’s to the journey of bettering my mental health, being kinder to myself and improving my performance to chase my dreams. I hope that this might inspire someone to do the same. Like Rage Against the Machine unapologetically says - “Yo we gotta take the power back”!

    Thanks again for your continued love and support. I wouldn't be here without you!

    Stay tuned.

    Love from

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton

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  • Week Three - Short and sweet

      5 March 2019
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    Kia ora whanau and friends. Just a small update this week... All is well with me, I have been training almost everyday on the slopes and keeping focused on what I want to achieve in skiing from this trip.

    Not many adventures this week because it is still the Finnish school holiday period, therefore most of my training group is away. So in saying that, this week has required a lot of self motivation and self guidance.

    Two exciting moments and highlights of my week were, firstly - I got to experience the northern lights, a beautiful green glow through the chilly night sky, so insanely beautiful and something I had only dreamed of experiencing in my lifetime. They were not as strong as they normally would be (locals said), but for me it was more than enough. Hopefully it will get cold enough to see them again!

    Secondly - I booked flights to Munich, Germany for later this month. A group of us from Finland will be travelling to northern Italy for a FIS Europa Cup slopestyle comp. This will be my first FIS competition and I am certainly nervous, but really excited to see some more of Europe, which wouldn't be possible without the help of my wonderful grandpa Holger. Thank you so much, Ich leibe dich, und vielen Dank.

    That's me for the week. Thanks again for your continuous support. Truly a blessing!

    Stay tuned.

    Love from,

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton

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  • Week Two - Double Decades!

      26 February 2019
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    Hello again friends! Welcome back. This week has been amazing, my birthday week in fact! As of the 20th of February, I am a 20 year old, feels strange to say, but finally I got to turn 20 on the 20th! (always wanted to do that). Thanks for all the birthday messages, it was a pretty cool experience to have an almost 48hr birthday with the time differences. And an even cooler experience (literally) to celebrate in winter!

    My birthday wasn't too eventful, but it started with waking up in the morning to it snowing outside (overjoyed with happiness, almost cried), then heading out to the gym for skill training. During the day I did a food shop, bought and consumed some donuts of course... Spoke with family and friends over video chat and then went skiing from the afternoon on wards.

    Temperatures dropped to some chilly numbers (-17'c being the lowest), add some high wind and you've got the perfect day! ;) . The Finnish school holiday period also started which made the slopes much busier than usual, but nothing compared to the lines on a bluebird Mt Ruapehu day (thank goodness). Training on the snow was great this week, despite the wind and cold, I had lots of fun focusing on getting used to jumps again and hitting some bigger jumps too. Small steps, but really proud of myself.

    A massive highlight this week was going out on a snow shoeing adventure with my friend Kian and our Coach/Finnish local guide/nature enthusiast - Jussi (for the non Euro's its pronounced 'you see'). We went to a hill called Pyhävaara which is a sacred place to the Native people of Finland, known as Sámi people or Laplanders. "The Sámi people (also spelled Saami) are a Finno-Ugric people inhabiting Sápmi, which today encompasses large parts of Norway and Sweden, northern parts of Finland, and the Murmansk Oblast of Russia." - Wikipedia, i'll put a link at the bottom to the page for further information. Pyhävaara is a popular snow shoe track so upon arrival, we expected there to be tracks to follow... There wasn't. So our journey up the hill began with a 3 hour hike through knee deep, thigh deep and waist deep snow, it was footstep roulette really, will you fall through the snow? stay on top? who knows. It was a testing and challenging climb that's for sure, but determination pulled us through. On the way up we trekked through beautiful trees and watched the sunset. When we reached the top it was dark.

    To get down the hill was a whole other crazy experience. Jussi brought 3 pow surf boards from home for us to ride. A combination between snowboard and surfboard, no bindings to strap into, just a shaped plank with no edges, a slippery base and some grip pads on top to stand on. To ensure the boards don't disappear when you fall over, they've got a leash to attach to your pants. Jussi went first to create a track for us to follow, about 30cms or more deep we'd be weaving through the trees. I found this experience absolutely hilarious, mainly laughing at myself and how fun it was. We had head torches on so we could see, a limited view in the pitch black, with a constant thought of "when am I going to hit a tree". I tried surfing a few times on my feet but would quickly gain too much speed, get the wobbles and crash into waist deep snow, definitely a few face plants in the mix. Eventually I found the best technique for me was to kneel on the back of the board and my hands hold the front grip pad. Overall this was a truly thrilling experience, when I wasn't crashing, I was zooming on the track through the trees, leaning side to side for turns (laughing hysterically) and having the time of my life. I would compare the feeling to riding the Luge in Rotorua. Back at the car I was covered in snow, sopping wet but had the biggest grin on my face. couldn't stop smiling the whole drive home.

    Just yesterday we visited a neighboring ski field - Iso Syöte ski resort, about an hour drive from Kuusamo. They had such an awesome park filled with heaps of rails. I thoroughly enjoyed skiing there, seeing a new place and getting back on some metal rails. Not to mention, they had two reindeer hanging out in a pen who I just had to be friends with. Can't get enough!

    Thanks again for reading, and to everyone who has donated! We almost have enough to cover both my training and living expenses! I'm so grateful for your generosity.

    Stay tuned.

    Love from,

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton.

    Link to wikipedia page on Sámi people - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/S%C3%A1mi_people

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  • Week One - Jet lag sucks!

      19 February 2019
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    Kia Ora whanau, this first week settling in has been so breezy! I love waking up every single hour of the night when trying to sleep! ;) NOT!... So yeah, jet lag sucks... Now that we've got that off my chest, I am sleeping relatively normal now, only took 12 days!!

    But really, this week has been wonderful. Lot's of adventures around the town and shops, finding neat buildings, city scapes, places to shop and admiring people's modes of transportation - sledding, cross country skis, snowmobiling, bicycles, public buses and lots of ice covered cars.

    I love looking through all the shops from hardware stores to supermarkets, I find everything so interesting due to an evident lack of english, which makes for exciting food finds - snacks particularly! ;) but it also brings difficulty because of my allergy to peanuts, all the ingredients are in Finnish, so I'm sure you can Imagine google translate is my new best friend.

    Training has started up for me and I'm so happy to be back on snow. I ski with a gang of Finnish athletes who are very talented skiers, but a little shy on the talking, I'm sure that will change in time. Our two coaches on snow are awesome as well and have been so welcoming. the Ruka ski resort is amazing! I've never skied with trees before and they create such magical scenery when skiing. There's so much snow on them which forms incredible shapes, almost looking like icecream, marshmallows or some sort of Dr. Zuess illustration. It truly is a whole other world up here.

    Thanks to my friend Kian, I found my absolute favorite run on the mountain, It's called 'Rosa and Rudolph', a family friendly run with cute mini houses in the trees that light up, a pen with a reindeer in it who is so friendly and I got to pet! And a few turns later, some dog kennels with 2 beautiful Huskies inside who love attention from passing skiers and boarders. Most definitely a trip highlight that I will be visiting regularly.

    Off snow we train in the mornings at the gym as a group with our awesome physical training coach. These sessions can be challenging but rewarding in the long run for our health and skiing. This week we did strength, skill, trampoline and endurance training. Although these sessions require an early start and a 15 minute walk in the dark and freezing cold (i'm really selling it), it's worth it for the improvement of my body and performance.

    My favorite place I visited this week was the Kuusamo Holy Cross Church. A stunning historic building surrounded by snowy trees, here's a link to it's amazing history - https://www.discoveringfinland.com/destination/kuusamo-holy-cross-church/

    My favorite purchase this week was mandarins, some of the best I've tasted! No clue where they'd be coming from in this winter wonderland, but they sure are good!

    Thanks again for your support!

    Stay tuned.

    Love from,

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton.

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  • Kia Ora Finland!!

      11 February 2019
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    For those who haven't been following on Facebook, I made it to Finland! Thanks to your help and support my dreams are coming true, starting with my first taste of a Northern Hemisphere ski season.

    To start things off, I am beyond stoked to announce being apart of the Sportive NZ whanau! I secured a sponsorship with Sportive NZ which includes a contract to represent a few of my favorite brands. You can catch me on the slopes this year representing K2 Skis, Full Tilt Boots, Smith Optics and Neff Headwear accessories! So thankful for this opportunity. A week before leaving, my order of new gear arrived. My skis and boots were on their last legs, and this package includes my FIRST EVER brand new pair of ski boots!! Along with some new K2 skis, Smith goggles and helmet. What a blessing.

    The day after my gear arrived, my Mum, younger brother Noah and I drove down to Ohakune especially to see TCB Ski Board and Bike to get all my new gear ready for Europe. My family have been coming here since I was little and the TCB crew has shown nothing but love, support and outstanding service all these years. So thank you to Ben and TCB for sorting my gear to top standard and always believing in me. Wouldn't have it any other way.

    Taking Flight -

    The amazing Brox Ltd sponsored the payment of my flights and that is truly what got me here, literally ;). I am forever thankful to them and their beautiful whanau for this blessing.

    On the morning of Waitangi day (6th Feb) I shared a delicious breakfast surrounded by my closest friends and family, it was the perfect send off and totally my style - wonderful people, great music and even better food. Once at the airport the bags were checked, boarding passes collected, lunch eaten and it was all go...

    I traveled over 2 days on 4 flights. Auckland to Bangkok, 10 hour flight. Bangkok to Frankfurt, 11 hour flight. Frankfurt to Helsinki, 3 hour flight. I stayed the night in Helsinki at a beautiful Scandinavian hotel by the airport, ate a yummy dinner and had a very confused body clock. The final flight was a short and sweet 1.5 hour flight from Helsinki to Kuusamo - my new home for the next 2 months.

    Travelling alone was hard at times, finding my way around new airports, different countries, different languages etc... But it's all apart of the experience and i'm really proud of myself for stepping into this journey.

    Now in Kuusamo, Finland, everything is covered in a fluffy white blanket and looks truly magical. I have never seen this much snow in my life, but I cant get enough!! My apartment is lovely, although, now 3 days in, i'm still not sleeping right, gotta love jet lag ;). The first night I woke up every hour and when I did, I looked out my window at the picturesque postcard scene just to reassure my self this was real. I'm not dreaming, I'm really here!!

    Thank you to everyone who has donated to this page, this is a MASSIVE help to me and way more than I ever imagined. Thank you, thank you, thank you and Kiitos, as the locals say.

    Stay tuned.

    Love from,

    Laura Molly Jane Wotton.

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