I need a Rainbow

Hi all, I hate to do this but I am in desperate need. In 2020 due to loneliness and depression I ended up having a mental breakdown and also broke out with PTSD, Panic attacks and anxiety. I was in Thailand and there was a world wide lockdown and I was stuck there not knowing what was wrong or how to fix it. After begging for the embassys help for a month or so they finally got me on a repatriation flight back to New Zealand which I needed a loan for as it was over $3000. Due to medical costs, high rent, Loneliness and other issues I have not been able to pay much of that bill. They are hounding me and about to send me to debt collectors. Even with the understanding of my position of not being able to find work and my health and wellbeing.

The stress of this along with not being able to get new clothes, afford gym, pool, art materials an activity every now and then for my mental health is starting to flare up my anxiety and PTSD again. My mental health is at an all time low.

Money is not the answer to everything in fact everyday I long to find good companionship plutonic and romantic. Be able to save towards things I like and need such as adventure. Get the things I need and want such as clothes, a self care treat like haircut or massage. A job that I can physically and mentally keep up with. A place where I feel I fit in and belong. But it does help.

I'm raising money to help ease the burden of this as the benefit does not leave me with enough to pay it off. Thank you all.