Old factory reference syndrome I believe I smell when I don't.

About three years ago a pal convinced me to try a drug called nbombes or 25i it was supposed to make pretty patterns and colors I had never tried things like that before and it was actually legal at the time but got banned shortly after my terrible experience.

Basically what happened I walked into the bathroom after someone had used it and it wasn't a particularly pleasant smelling situation the so called trip then began and in my mind I was convinced I smelt bad and had made a mess of myself. They even removed my clothing to prove that I was ok but no matter how much they said in my mind it was real, just kept looping the same thoughts. Fast forward about 3 years now 3 suicide attempts, loss of friends loss of the ability to live a normal life and socialization.I used to be the life of the party with heaps of friends now I remove myself from social circumstances or if i do go I never stay long so I don't have to feel the terrible anxiety that i feel from the false belief that i smell or have made a mess. over those years I have never once had an accident but my brain has convinced itself to keep me afraid and anxious on the possibility that it could happen. Because of this experience I now have severe depression and anxiety. I have seen multiple mental health doctors shrinks etc, but they basically give me a new drug to try and nothing ends up working. I've also tried therapy to no avail. I am however still seeing a psychologist who is great just to talk about life and issues that go along with it. This is a humiliating and debilitating condition that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy.

I haven't put my face on because I am afraid people might recognize me.