I am cutting down on pain killers now and have been the past few days i am not taking them unless i urgently need to anymore i really need to start getting my health back on track, i am still not eating very well due to teeth, still on the antibiotics to they run out, Today's a rest day then i am off to work tomorrow to complete an 8hr shift hopefully it will go better than work the other day its not easy working like this, but after Thursday i have a week off work to try pull myself together over the last 2 weeks no dental work has been done other than consultations and i have been given prescriptions for antibiotics etc, this is due to the fact i didn't have the $1200 up front to start the 3 root canals. During this time i have not been able to train at all, haven't been able to eat properly only such things like baby food, and soft bread as well as drink up and go's. A week of it i had off work due to the pain and swelling been so bad i wouldn't of been able to work. When the pain has been that bad its really pushed my limits but i have just cried my way through it. I can't handle the break down's though the thoughts that go through your head are horrible. I got myself back to work as of Sunday as i have no sick leave so couldn't afford to have more time off work. I have been in and out of dentists been to the hospital and the doctor, no one can help me anymore, the only way it can be fixed is getting the route canals done and then it will fix everything. Its so hard knowing this all could of been fixed and prevented at the start of the two weeks if id had the money to get it done. Although this is scary and its hurting me a lot and affecting my health, training and work and everything i am trying to bring out the good in it. Although there's not much its going to teach me to appreciate life so much more the times that i am happy and healthy again if i ever get this sorted. Its just another challenge that life has given me and i will Never Ever Give Up , ill get through it. I still feel really bad because i know there is people out there going through so much worse and they need help more than me. I don't like having to ask for help unless i really need it and i guess this is the hardest point in my life its my first time experiencing physical pain and i am trying to deal with it as best as i can but i actually can't get through this on my own. Trying to get through this being stronger. I appreciate everyone's help so much and hope someday i can help you in return . I just feel like i am loosing everything the little things i even did have that kept me going like training .
