hard times victim of a kidnapping and rape and stabbing .struggle as i have gone thru a lot and still am

hi i never asked for help now i had to think about how i am , i am a victim of a very volient rape and kidnapping, i have strugglred for a whil.e and the man got 9 and a half years, but still he seems to do things from inside jail and to be honest it not been a good time, he has destroyed my life and i am now homeless. i got a house truck so i thought from a man in auckland with all i had and when i got it it was rusty leaking and no rego or wof and it now deregig, and not safe to live in i wad totally broken, i asked winz for help they have denied me ignored me and i have nobody that has helped me , i am in need to be in a better place i have been stuck in this truck for 6 months , the council hassle me because it is no legsal i get fines and hassled by them i have no where to go and no where to turn to,, i feel very depressed and a;lone, i have no one to turn to or to get help from, i get looked at an d judged by people who complain if they see my truck parked on council land and tye have made me so depressed ,, i would appreciaste any help i can get to be in a better place and safe as i not safe i feel like i at the end of my road but i still try to ho;ld on., thank you to an,y body who can help me out , i am 53 and honestly i feel so lost and sad and i have no one who cares