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  • Travelling to Thailand for Treatment 🇹🇭

      18 May 2026
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    I just wanted to share an update, for everyone that has reached out, made contact in some way or donated.

    I have completed the assessments with The Dawn and I am departing NZ this Sunday to commence 28 days residential treatment at The Dawn in Chiang Mai.

    I am feeling a mixture of anxiety & overwhelmedness and no doubt my feelings are going to shift, ebb & flow a lot over the days leading up to going and once I'm there. But I know this has to happen because even though it has been weeks since I fell apart, not much has improved .. and if I am being thruthful is been years in the making, not weeks.

    I am feeling very anxious about leaving Friday & Cuba, it will be the longest we have ever been apart, and they are all I have in the world that matters to me. But I know they are going to be in very good hands & they'lll be fine (they'll probably have a great time!)

    But I'm scared, scared that what if I can't get well and come back and still feel the way I do and that I can't find a way to fix myself.

    It's all so hard when your emotional regulation has left the building and your coping skills have collapsed. And I turn 50 soon and it feels like I am at ground zero.

    But I am going and I am going to try really hard to figure out how to get me back.

    Thank you everyone for everything, you all know who you are and I so gratefule for everything that you do ❤️

    Love me, Friday & Cuba x

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  • 💜 Thank you everyone 💜

      4 May 2026
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    I am so very thankful to everyone that has supported me either through this Give A Little, or in other ways.

    Lots of people are asking when I am going to go to the Dawn, and the short answer is I don't know yet. I have requested that Give A Little release the funds raised earlier and it all hinges on that.

    In the meantime I am getting some sessions with my original treating psychologist that helped me after the dog attack when Harlow died & that is really good. His initial assessment & prognosis isn't great - but it really just confirms how broken I am.

    For now I am having to take everything day by day and try not to get overwhelmed (which happens easily) I have virtualy no emotional regulation or coping skills, which I find really frustrating and hard to accept. And there's still lots of tears every day.

    Thank you so much for all the love and support - love me, Friday & Cuba x

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  • ❤️ Huge Gratitude & Thank You ❤️

      27 April 2026
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    On Friday evening an incredible donation of $12k was made towards my cause, I did a double take to make sure I wasn't seeing the email incorrectly & logged into GAL to triple check!

    I cried when I realised someone had donated such a generous amount, and it has taken me a few days to process it because it feels unreal! This now means I can now make a booking at The Dawn to go over and get the treatment to get me well on the path to getting better.

    To every single person that has donated, reached out in some way and encouraged me to get well I can't thank you enough, especially to the person who made the massive $12k donation - I will never be able to thank you enough, from the bottom of my heart I am so grateful.

    I will leave the page up for a few more days, any further donations will help cover air fares & insurance. And if there is anything over that I will keep it in an account for further continuing my treatment back in NZ.

    I have had 2 psychological assessments in the last 4 days locally and I am awaiting the reports from both of those to help me ensure I take the right path/s forward with treatment.

    Everyday is still day at a time and I still have to work hard every day to try and keep my mind in a positive, grateful space - I know it's going to be this way for a while and I just have to keep looking forward and finding joy in the small things in each day to keep me going.

    Much love from me Friday & Cuba x

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  • 💙 Thank you 💙

      23 April 2026
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    I am so overwhelmed and grateful for the huge donations, all the messages and the support from so many people - thank you, every little bit is helping. Lots of people are asking me what am I going to do with my work, where am I going to go or end up and the honest answer right now is I don't know.

    I am only able to take things a day at a time right now, and try to get through that day as best I can. Tomorrow I have a psych assessment which will hopefully mean some (local) help might start being available to me.

    The goal is still to go to The Dawn for respite and intensive therapy to help me on a healing journey, that feels like the best and most important thing for me to do. Only once I am in a much clearer headspace will I be able to think about what to do next.

    I am trying to find other ways to raise funds to make the treatment possible, but in the meantime please share the page if you feel comfortable doing so 💙

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  • Photos (trigger warning self harm).

      19 April 2026
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    In all the photos I've posted here I was struggling, sometimes I just hide it better than other times. But I wanted people to see me for me, and the me most of you don't see because I hide the sad, broken me so well.

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