Please help me access urgent, life saving mental health treatment.
Giving me a chance at healing, hope, and help me find a future I can believe in again.
Auckland
It's fair to say I've been fighting to stay afloat for well over a decade.
Behind the scenes, I have experienced significant mental traumas, personal loss & serious health challenges, including chronic illness & ongoing chronic pain. I've known I have been losing the battle for a while now, but recently, things reached a breaking point.
In March I made a serious suicide attempt. I was referred to the local MHS & I have sought urgent help through the public health system, my GP, and ACC. Whilst I have has done everything possible, I am not able to access the immediate, specialised care I urgently need.
My GP has declared me fully unfit for work & MHS have confirmed I require intensive psychological long term trauma therapy, specifically DBT.
With the help of a few friends we've explored all viable options in NZ including residential programs which can offer me the intensive respite that I need, but these involve long wait times & extended stays that are not feasible. But we have identified a program at The Dawn Rehab in Thailand offering structured, trauma informed care.
The total cost of the program is $40k & air fares are $2211, I have secured $20k through a loan, but I need help to cover the rest.
I'm asking my friends & people that care about me to help me get the respite care I really need to help set me on the path to recovery. If you can donate or share, you would be helping give me a real chance at recovery.
Use of funds
Funds raised will go towards the cost of the Mental Health Treatment in Thailand. Excess funds will go towards air fares, insurance, and continuing my treatment back in NZ.
Latest update
Travelling to Thailand for Treatment 🇹🇭 18 May 2026
I just wanted to share an update, for everyone that has reached out, made contact in some way or donated.
I have completed the assessments with The Dawn and I am departing NZ this Sunday to commence 28 days residential treatment at The Dawn in Chiang Mai.
I am feeling a mixture of anxiety & overwhelmedness and no doubt my feelings are going to shift, ebb & flow a lot over the days leading up to going and once I'm there. But I know this has to happen because even though it has been weeks since I fell apart, not much has improved .. and if I am being thruthful is been years in the making, not weeks.
I am feeling very anxious about leaving Friday & Cuba, it will be the longest we have ever been apart, and they are all I have in the world that matters to me. But I know they are going to be in very good hands & they'lll be fine (they'll probably have a great time!)
But I'm scared, scared that what if I can't get well and come back and still feel the way I do and that I can't find a way to fix myself.
It's all so hard when your emotional regulation has left the building and your coping skills have collapsed. And I turn 50 soon and it feels like I am at ground zero.
But I am going and I am going to try really hard to figure out how to get me back.
Thank you everyone for everything, you all know who you are and I so gratefule for everything that you do ❤️
Love me, Friday & Cuba x
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