Surgery gone wrong now living with pain forever

In 2018 i had a surgry that went very wrong it was ment to be a simple cyist removel and tube tie but when i woke up from the surgrey i didint feel right.

after around 3 months of pain and being sick every day lossing over 10kg (normaly 45 kg) going to doctors every day and still trying to run a house hold,kids and working i had to quit my job then one night i couldent sleep i had lots of pain then got chest pain i was rushed into christchurch hospital they found the surgen had SLICED my pancreatics and it had infected mt gallbladder so i had to under go a second surgry.

since then i am still in amazing amounts of pain most days im sick 2 or 3 times a day i cant even vaccum my house or do the things i love doing and for a person like me who find it hard to sit still i allways end up over doing it to get the job done and try get on with life. i have been going to doctors twice a week and in and out of hospital since 2018 fighting so hard to get a doctor or surgen to look into why i am not getting any better.

having surgens try make out im crazy or drug seeking. I DONT WANT PILLS !!!!

they wont even help me at pain management unless i say my slice in my pancreatis or what is wrong with me is not fault from the surgens. i will not do THIS.

i have all paper work to prove they messed up on more than on occasion! and that i am still very ill.

i dont want to be on pain killers or be in this much pain i also do not want to die!! i have 4 children who need me and i am only 31 i have way more life i need to live.