11 April 11 April 2016
Cant believe this was me 7 months ago....counting down the days till i got off the steroids and complaining about the measly 8kgs of weight i had put on. But now 40kgs heavier and 9 months on steroids!, Its crazy the amount of changes i have gone through, both mentally and physically.
I had my oncologist appointment on Friday last week. I wasn’t able to get many answers as theres not many answers he can give me without a scan but he did recommend a few more places to approach to fundraising and said he will book me in for some scans over the next month before I see him again. I am back on chemotherapy, was hoping the 6 months ive just completed would be enough but I suppose ill wait and see what the next scan says…and hey itl help the anxiety at least
Its been a good 10 months since I was rediagnosed and I feel like everythings been thrown at me but ive found a way to crawl over it. I feel like i have gained so much from this journey, the strength i have found, watching my daughter get through this with me, the friends i have made, and being able to put aside my pride and be able to accept the help that has been offered. Its changed me, for better or worse im not sure yet but i feel like im a hell of a lot stronger,def more compassionate and so sooo proud of my little girl!
Yes i have my moments and my tears and unfortunately this is where i come to vent but u know that once those "moments" dissapear and the tears dry up im ready to face another day, and thats all i can do at the moment. I dont have control of this disease but i do have control over how im gunna live with it.
I saw a collection bucket for you at West Liquor Glen Eden yesterday. Then I read your story. I have two little girls and you remind me of how fortunate I am to have my health. I made a contribution this morning and hope to do so again next month. I hope you get to your goal as quickly as possible. You're an inspiration so keep on keeping on.