Help Jane Connect With Her Family

I must of been a real naughty 3yr old,and thats why my parents abandoned me i thought to myself until I realized I had a lil sister, I could blame. I was 3 when both my parents came to NZ from England and left me at a private daycare and never came back to get me. I spent my childhood till my late teens,creating stories, making excuses for, and staying loyal too my parents as to why they did this I shut out anyone and everyone that tried to get close. to me, waiting for them to return. It wasn't until my late teens that my parents made contact with me once more and it was at that time I asked them the 2 questions that had stayed with me for a lifetime. Why? and, Did we have any other family .They replied!, We feel we don't owe you an explanation and No, you don't have any other family. They then disappeared again after only 2 weeks.It is only due to recent media events (see my face book page)surrounding my parents in the UK, that I learnt that family do exist and were never aware of our existence.I have 3 daughters, they themselves know that i have carried a sense of inadequacy and ,lack identity and they themselves have tried hard,over the years to find family for me,especially my daughter that passed away. I love them to the moon and beyond..I am not a victim of my past I have values and morals that I hold firm, I love people and try my best in life and I try to instill this in my children . You would never know by talking to me or looking at me, that i have been through or lived the life I have.I have always tried to stand on my own two feet,be the best I can and make what I want to happen, happen but I have been through a very hard year, I would like to share a little of that year with you..At the beginning of the year I left my job, my home and my grandchildren when my eldest daughter said "Mum, we need to go to Refuge. I had prayed for the day I would here these words from her as,she had been in a violent relationship for some years.We were relocated out of the area and that was hard.March 26th my 26 yr old daughter who has two small girls died suddenly of an asthma attack. November i am contacted by Wales Police and told my mother had died and the remains of my father were found by a rubbish bin in her back garden and they believe she murdered him.I also learn more about my parents than i have ever known in my lifetime. All this has been a lot to process but i needed to find something good in all the ugliness to focus on and I did .I found family,,they were not aware of my existence,as nor i was theirs, and now I am hoping with the help of some amazing people I will be able to raise enough to go to Wales and meet family i have never known and spend some time with them,and heal that Lil Girl Inside.This is something i have only ever dreamed of.... I have a Yearn to know, To find, And to seek,My sense of belonging that is so very weak. Your help would be is so so much appreciated and i will be happy to share my journey with you on my return. Kind Regards Jane