Clay Drummond- Big hearted kiwi guy needs help with rare tumour.

Well I just woke up from I wish a nightmare, in tears, so while I'm awake at 4am I thought I would share with you my experiences yesterday in Auckland with the Specialist. Here it goes... Surgery would leave me paralized from neck down, which Pretty much sums its up. My tumour has engulfed my main nerve and blood on my S1 L5, that just the slightest of wrong move from a surgical point is HIGH, it would wreck the nerve and leave it without use. Also due to the placement of this little #£@#%¥€ if I had surgery I would also lose my bowl and bladder and most of my lower spine would go, which would leave me para from neck down,Wow. I knew pretty much everything apart from that. It shocked us all. I walked out wondering what my future holds with tears & numb.

So what or where to go from here... Well, as I've always stated, there is always someone in a boat that isn't doing to flash themselves, I have a friend right now in critical condition :( Jah bless brother x

So I will continue the steroids and pain relief until further notice. I am still looking at this new drug trail but Dr's are hesitant for me to throw all my money into something that may or may not work as it's very expensive and unknown side effects. Half of me is at the point of "I'm tired, but let's just take the risks". So it's been 3years of hell and not knowing, so we are going to regroup and think of other ways to fix this. Which a lot of you believe in the natural ways. The meds I get now are FREE!! but natural is expensive due to our lovely government, so while on sickness benefit it will be challenging. As for you all you guys, thank you, thank you to everyone that does their part , either it be supporting my mum or myself, cooking, hugs & the list can go on forever, I just can never thank you all enough. It's not over until I say it's over, so now I want to go out and try to enjoy the things I can do and not think back to the things I can't do. Bless all n Jah love to all. Looking forward to seeing you...