I want to better myself

Heyy, so I’m 26 years of age and I work full time. Sometimes it’s a struggle mentally and physically to continue. I am a community support worker for people with disabilities. Working is slowly becoming a struggle, But work is all that is keeping me going at this point. I have been overweight most of my life and really need to change this, before my body gives up on me.

I don’t feel happy in this body and I really would like to be happy again. I have lost all confidence, and have crippling anxiety whenever I’m out. To go shopping I have to take someone with me. I don’t wanna feel or be this way anymore.

I recently got cellulitis while working, so ended up having to take 1 year and a half of work to heal to be back. The doctor had actually said, because of me being so overweight, it may be harder to heal, or I could have lost my leg entirely. During this time my weight had reached 236kgs at my biggest.

If I were to ever get this sort of money I would go to turkey or Thailand for the surgery “gastric sleeve” as they are cheaper than New Zealand.

If not enough funds raised I will keep adding to that myself, or even apply for KiwiSaver again.

Appreciate everyone.