Expiry dates
7 October 2017It’s been a wee while since I shared with everyone.
Time to download what has happened.
I got a tattoo!
Well that was last post, but at the beginning of the month my sister, Mum and I got tattoos!
Another item to tick off my post chemo list!
I had a checkup with my doctor.
And a scan in August.
Everything is tracking along well, no new tumors or growths.
Check up in 6 weeks time.
That’s how my life is measured now a days.
By intermittent doctors visits.
A big thing this last month was meeting with my Cancer Society NZ councillor. It’s a great service provided free by the Cancer Society.
Dear hubby and I sat down with my councillor and talked through my end of life plan and funeral.
“Fun-er-al”
Apparently it’s a tool to help us deal with what is coming and to iron out any areas of possible conflict.
I was able to say what I wanted and how I wanted it done, which is far luckier than some people get.
I even went as far as saying what songs I wanted played.
Not something a typical newly married couple has to deal with in the first year of marriage.
But we plod along and keep fighting.
Next month is our first wedding anniversary!
The doctors had small goals for my chemo, make me well enough to attend my own wedding!
That came and went.
Next was to get me on my honeymoon.
That also came and went.
So what was next?
Now I have to make my own goals.
It’s amazing we have made it this far. I don’t mean anything negative about our relationship.
As Christmas approaches, we come up against another herdal.
My expiry date is approaching.
Doctors told me in June 2016 I had 1 to 2 years I live.
My case was terminal, stage four.
June next year (8 months away) is two years since I was told that.
If I manage to make it past that date, how do you love knowing that at any moment it could be taken away?
Living each day as if it was a new day? Or as if it was your last?
I’m grappling with that right now.
How would you deal with it?
Laura Robson.