Life goes on after tragedy hits of losing my son and baby cousin

Starting all over again....

It's been the hardest 4mths not only dealing with grieving the loss of my son and cousin in a horrific way that the last image of your son never leaves my mind, (slashed from ear to ear half his face was falling off, stabbed over 28 times to his skull, his brain was exposed, through his heart and every major organ) he still stayed strong and fought to be with us till we were able to let him go (turning of life support) No mother should ever go through this heartache, our kids are suppose to bury us, my aunty going through this too 💔 we glad our boys made there finally journey together and not alone. I'm struggling to move forward, to help my other kids, my son left behind his pregnant partner, having to do it on her own. I feel I'm letting my family down as I'm barely making it on my own. Feeling as I'm failing as a mother. I ask for help to get on my feet I've moved to Aussie, closer to my daughter in hopes and determination to find a better life, because of the sudden unexpected change, I have nothing and I'm living off my family, I'm away from my main support my partner at times like this I need as much love, comfort & support I can possibly ask for, I'm fighting a battle I can never win. I'm in need of a bond, furniture and to change and sit tickets so can get into the fifo job. I need to be reunited with my partner and family & find us a home and for course and tickets

PLEASE HELP A GRIEVING MOTHER start from scratch and to start living.