Rebuild,reinforce,reclaim

Struggling with illness trying too keep my head above water with bills and keeping time up for treatment.

Hi all I'm Samuel.

To be honest I've been struggling for a few years not really letting anyone in thinking that I'm saving them the trouble.

Turns out that pushes everyone who wanted to help away and making be out to be the biggest annoyance in other people's lives.

Which is kinda a downer but hey life happens all people can atest to the fact that we weren't giving an instruction manual to life when we turned up on earth.

Yes I'm a bastard and proud of it, any complaints please file with the devil because to hell with your issues with me, (arrogant pricks apply only in person to Satan)

So i got sick a few years ago being struggling with the illness now also 6 years, in and out of hospitals so don't like hanging around them now.

Got polyps and a couple of growths had some cut, but some of the medications aren't funded by big pharmaceutical in new zealand which sucks as they try to run the generic way.

But this illness is from a mutation of cells which isn't responding to treatment well.

I don't like dying quietly so in a last hail marry I'm punting for my last ditch effort.

If it doesn't work it doesn't hey I can look back on 29 years and laugh at most of the shit I've been thru from loosing my hair to my radiation sickness, to me and a few lads been absolute lads and the lasses who drove us to do just that.

The injuries from working with the boyz, the sort of hold my beer style.

Thnx