young mum of 25 Terminal Cancer Epithelioid Sarcoma from hand to lungs in 2 years

We are loosing the battle to a Rare form of cancer Epithelioid Sarcoma, which began in my daughters hand in 2015 and grew to an annoying size. They biopsied the lump and after 3 years we are now riddled with this cancer and is in pallative care ,after terminal diagnosis was given, November 2017 , a term of 1 year the best they could offer... She is residing here at home here with me and has decided to remain here till her last days if possible and her two kids ages 5 going 6 (girl) and 9 (boy)...with little time remaining to create any more memories worthy of her energy levels which are depleting day by day, we are a close knit unit being solo for all my kids lives. Her 2 brothers 17,19 also reside here and they too are struggling with their sisters pending demise.

I would like to do as much as I could yet we just have no finances and travelling is quite past the thought at this late stage... yet if I had the funds available we could do things like photographs family portraits and other adventures with mum when shes able to actually get out of bed and spend time with the kids.

This fund will be for the kids for me and just about giving them a life when she is gone and we are grieving....I'd like to set each child up with a new bedroom set up and take them out when i can to experience life and hobbies etc...I have no vehicle so many things will indeed bring me down...yet also bring me the ability to create some life for these two and create a life where the loss of their mum can be eased by small and significant ways....time with kids was never better spent....I'm in for an adventure I'm into giving these kids a life without mum with NAN. I just hope to provide better for them with their mum my baby girl/daughter...

this is hard on me yet I am the rock , always have been my need is simple to afford to get away for a beach holiday with the kids after and during mum's illness so Nan can de-stress and surf cast on a beach carefree for a few days while we recoup our energies.

I have been doing this alone without a network of family we are dysfunctional in close family ties never eventuated... so would dearly love help but being prideful I have put this off long enough and have placed my pride up on a shelf so that I might make the kids lives better at such a heart breaking time.

All documentation is available for perusal ... regarding her condition with terminal diagnosis... on demand if needed for verification. Thank you for reading ...may god bless your heart.