I am 35 years old my family are not rich we lived on a farm in Taumarunui out in the country side about 15km from the nearest shop. I was raised by a single mother of 4. My father has 13. Younger brothers have died. I also was loved by a step father and have his last name as he is the father to 2 of my siblings from my mothers side. I am the oldest girl on both sides of the family. I was good at school i loved school ive worked hard through my life. I knew from a young age that i wanted to own a successful business the first qualification i got was in small business management i was the youngest in my class. I then went to fashion school. I loved making people feel beautiful as i know if you look good you feel good this was my passion ive been making clothes for my business in the comfort of my own home space, printing personalised clothing. It all crumbled when i got sick. My first ever job i ever had was looking after elderly when ni was 15 years old during high school i did this job as well as school i started off there asking for just work experience. I love my elderly i learnt alot from them. Ive held hands of many that had passed on of different ethnicity through this type of work.
I was also a live nin caregiver for an elderly couple while i studied as a bar tender and worked as a waitress in a restaurant hotel in wellington.
I worked making trilesse coopers finest gears she is one of nz top fashion designers. Ive loved my family so much that my inspiration was them and not wanting to see my mum struggle or us and hope that one day i could help us as a unit by working hard and leading by example. I moved from tmn when i was very young i lived at a look out for 3 months with my dog in a car going to my studys and tryna find work. It was hard. But i had a dream. Then was just to get out and try with all i had. Ive seen and been loved by alot of people along the way. Alot werent my family or even my ethnicity i remember matilda the ladyni looked after she was white i loved her so much she taught me so much i was 16 or 19 she was in a wheel chair i loved and learnt so much from her. I miss her dearly.
Anyways no matter what ive done ive learnt so many things ive done so much and been so many places in new zealand. I really want to go over seas to different places other then new zealand. I done so much because i wanted to be a person that my siblings could be proud of when actually i lost myself scrapping and husling to do things work for sake to help all my loved ones and neva thought of myself. GOD has a funny way of making you rest. Thats how i think about why i got sick. He made me rest without an option and to be honest i still couldnt stop working ni still was makjng mprinted clothinb jn hospital. Marketing and making clothes even after my surgery and me losing half my weight right down to bone. I went out for 2 hours as thats the onlynamountof btime i was allowed iff the ward in hospital. Me and a good friend would go out to the park and feed anyone we could for free with sausage sizzles. No matter what i stayed positive most times while i was sick it was coming from deep down and just to smile was taking all that i had to do it.ni would sleep straight away. I hidbaway how i really felt. I kept giving even when i felt i couldnt. But no matter what more then death that hurt me was not completing all the things i always wanted to do. I hadvaccepted death it wasnt dyingbthat scared me it was that ive done so much for others and always put my dreams on the back i kept saying ill look after me later. I can do what i want later my dreams can wait they aint that important. Cancer gave my a chance to appreciate me. To actually see that i am worth having and doing thing ni want to do that fill my soul so i can carry on helping and giving. I forgot me. So its not that i dont want to help others now i dont think i could ever stop if i tryed my best notbto but i know now that for the first timd i am going to do something just for myself this time. This is the lesson ive learnt from my experience and i can finally take action towards my vission board i created over 25 years ago.
I have now had a second operation it is 2020 February and I had an operation on the 14th of February Valentine's day they found a large mass tumor its attached itself to my other organs they cannot take it out without telling me they suggest chemo but there's not follow give me more life I want to get treatment which I found called hyperthermia cancer treatment is the only other option I have where they burn the cancer cells what's a probe in fitness a recent recent treatment which is over in China Utah Japan Florida in Australia they're not New Zealand so sorry for the confusion with my previous wishlist give a Little Page I was a survivor then which I was told the doctors got all the cancer out but now I come in for other complications like sore tummy vomiting few other things and they found a big chooma and I don't have very much options so guys I'm fundraising for my treatment which is going to cost around about estimation $75,000 over in China so all my money will be going towards treatment not a holiday or survivor or bucket list because the bucket list that was enough chance that I could have come back anyway I'm 5 years so I was repairing just in case but now it's more serious than that that has come back and now they can't remove it so it's a race against Time really
https://www.facebook.com/Cancer-survivor-dream-2020-721598338269310/
https://cancertherapies.cc/hyperthermia-in-cancer-therapy/
https://www.stuff.co.nz/national/health/68353082/timaru-woman-faces-funding-her-own-cancer-treatment