Emotive (Vanity or Art)

My main goal is something a bit different!

(Emotive) Vainty or Art, a series of emotive selfies which a Raw, Real, Exposed, Gritty, set of photographs ranging from Grief, Trust/rebuilding, anxiety, depression and secrets.

I want to portray and show the side no one wants to talk about, the darker side that hurts to see, i want people to talk.

After this is all done, i want to be able to show the world that it is ok to feel these things and although it's not fun or pretty, it is normal and things will be ok in the end if you reach out!!

Also a month back my dad passed and i plan to use some of his ashes in a painting that again explores the grief side of things, textured, sad, yet with glimpses of colour. This would be featured in the grief series.

I think my main challenge is getting someone/place to help back me BUT i don't plan to give up easily as i feel i have a strong message and that is not always being happy is normal and want to be able to reach out and speak to even just that one person, that will make it worth it.

There is that little ray of sunshine out there for you!

If i am just a lost girl with an idea and can achieve this then YOU the reader can achieve anything you put your mind to, life it too short not to live!!

IF YOU ARE GOING TO DREAM YOU MAY AS WELL DREAM BIG!!

People have been asking me what my goal is here and let me try explain the best i can.

1. Inspire those who are depressed/blue/have any mental health issues, that it is ok to say "Im not ok and that it's ok to reach out"

2. To deal with my own issues, lately things have not been good for me so i have taken a new approach, selfies, inspired, raw, they are what they are and i hope they move, show and convey what is going on on the inside on the outside.

3. To get people talking, there is still so much stigma attached with mental illness and it's just not right, even now days i get horrible looks from people from my OLD scars, who doesn't have scars, who cares how they got there, they are part of me and maybe without them i wouldn't be here today! Judge me on my character not some silly old scars, im not a bad person because of them, if anything it has made me more understanding, compassionate and able to relate to alot more people.

4. Also relates to 3 in a way, we can fix easier what is on the outside, cuts, wounds, breaks, weight but then what? You still have that same voice on the inside, which may sound "crazy" to those who do not understand but it is that voice which we need to fix, the part that makes it so hard and drives us to such extremes.

5. A lost soul like me even needs a break and i am hoping i have finally found my voice!!! It may be small now but with your backing it can be a ROAR <3

Also i just noticed i said NZ has one of the highest suicide rates in NZ, well done me