ADHD Assessment for Suse

50 years of my life & still, trying to get up that great big hill of... understanding? ...of being understood? Of finding me & my place among you?

Kia ora, nice to meet you. I am Suse & I have recently discovered that my lifelong struggles might have an explanation: neurodiversity; specifically, ADHD &/or ASD (with a bit of complex trauma thrown in for good measure).

My struggles started when I was still in kindergarten. During adolescence, I learned to shape myself to fit in with the world around me, because not having friends sucked. I did it quite well, but it was (& is) exhausting. For a little while there I succeeded: I studied & did great. I worked & was valued. I made friends & they cared about me. But, over time, all of these things became impossible to keep up. Why?

My awesome partner has had to sacrifice so much for me over our 12 years together, because, by now, I cannot even walk further than to the letter box, stand up long enough to boil an egg, or face the outside world without debilitating social anxiety. Not to speak of the really dark times of deep depression. I live between bed & armchair, paralysed by my own brain.

An ADHD assessment might make all the difference in my world, in my partner’s world, even, in an ever so small way in your world. Because, if there is a treatment out there that can get me back to working, contributing, creating, singing, laughing, living…

I have so much more to offer, I promise. Please help me do so.