The Haircut- "Mohawk like Olis"
26 January 2017
Knowing that she will loose her hair within weeks of radiation we had decided to do 'the cut' by choice. We thought this may soften the blow for all of us , considering how long it was before.
We showed her pictures of what we could do and she stated that she wanted a mohawk like big brother Oli ( even though he dosent have one)....so mohawk it was...
A lot of her hair was still matted from dried blood in the surgery. It was hard to wash because of the Hickman line and no showers , and how tangled it had become after the 2 weeks in hospital with limited preparation.
She likes her haircut that did locally and keeps styling it with her hands to make sure it stays peaked up. It's funny though looking at her, seeing how much gender is wrapped up in her hair...and how if hair loss is permanent, how that will feel for both her and me. We are lucky that she can 'pull it off' beacuse of her arrogance and strong character, but stroking her newly short hair is understandably a little different for me.....
When she looses it all, I wonder how I will adjust , not her!. One of the positives of her age is that her identity is less focused on her physicality. I do wonder though myself when people look at her now , what they are thinking. You know they see the line and question that and now they question her gender - i suppose this is why the bows and the pretty dresses come out - how fickle we can be..