Crips please help elishas story

Mummy of 5 beautiful baby's an a born sleeping buby boy now my angel, I'm single mum an love my life my great kids 15,13,11,7,3 their ages. Till March I tryed stop 3men killing each other got jolted back for all 3to land on me used arm master arm break fall, maultipal fractures breaks, nerves torn tendants ripped an ligaments. Then weeks of yoyod between doctors to after about for weeks be told I now have C.R.I.P.S its destroying my life ................I cripsdestroyingmylifepossible that as thrower from pillow to post with northland health services left 2weeks 7 casts to at first be told bad sprain to maultipal fractures breaks tendants nerve n ligamint damage. To be in an out Hosp 2weeks no body watch kids except each other at time living 20min from town or local shop school. I'm left handed n naturally had be that hand/arm I lost when I finally got to threatre doc said you'll just need plate an bolts an away to his surprise to find all nerve n tendant damage all crashed amounts bones when I woke in recovery I was yelling begging the pain was in describable so to be so morfined out feeling I was being o.d I was taken back to ward to hours later be sobbing begging nurses get surgen up something's not right told it was refered pain n left hours sobbing ;( n not 1to really cry) the lovely elderly lady an her husband rang buzErs refused hip op until id been seen again by surgen after much convincing surgen game unraped arm an said oh dear get this lady straight back threatre had muscular swelling down arm need cut to release could lose muscle thanks to nurse leaving so long surgeon tells me I was just realeved be going get fixed I hoped again. Woke in recovery feeling great top the world no pain nurses were shocked surgeon tells me I got keep muscle n had blood clot from first surgery all done n good so that. Afternoon they discharge me to go back out patients in 4 week time what bout dressings I asked as have stitches no they'll be fine . Well as being ex career in rest homes I new sticker wounds need b kept clean 4 day after I couldn't bear so decided call Hosp to be told its fine so I hAv healthy aid box n thought I'd do my self scared as knowing its all going be stuck to. Stitches etc an was also looked green I felt helpless couldn't go Hosp or medics originally went white cross to b put in to hard basket n sent Hosp so I'm at home 3year old at feet wanting help mumy me cooling boiled salt n water to soak dressing of in shock at what was seeing as was told would have tiny cut from. Wrist down arm then another we're had release muscle swelling I had had half Palm cut carpel tunnel cut release nerve as was crashed then diced from wrist to elbow on inner lower arm then cut on top wrist took 4 stitches I had I've a hundred internal an external stitches all togther not nice getting external our internal desolved but I felt every external come out. I carried on doing own dressings arm total disable pain through the roof arm would swell change colour sweatgo cold started growing black hair was like it was not my arm was going mad all my days n nights consisted of was my arm the numb pins n burning needles on hand felt constantly as if been run over n over by truk no relief more pills than chemist a 100kh a day car trip get baby's to primary college an daycare 13year old steped up as mum can't take top or bras on or off still can't not even put my hair up change my baby life changed an got worse acc sends 3 hrs a week of home help to do sheets an washing take ease of poor. 13 yr old girl. Trying live on dpb benefit left 234 a week live on gas doc food power ph everything I moved to auckland as need a lot therapy n thought b easier on my girl an me well doc down here for acc visit 30 buk North was free I gi 2 time week some week on controlled scripts have get weekly so scrip fees traveling it's not do able. Girls got camp had tell her u can't go hun sory.n she smiled said it ok mum she has have days of whn got hand therapy watch bub as daycare wants 3weeks of visiting before can start. My crips hAs got to point it burns sweats changes colour swells had netball fits twitches please google this dease not enoughs knowen about it but it destroying my n my family its not easy diagnosed an left to long can be herindis like mine could still lose arm. The black random hairs its growing is hear renching to look at dosent look like my arm. Can't were sleeves put under water can't let n body near or touch it can be asleep to wake as though it's in scolding water getting electrocuted drops me can hold my baby's I can undo bottle I can't get baking tray out oven I'm completely useless my beautiful baby's are amazingly ajusted though an try stick up for me if somebody comes an I ask them do something I can't if they question why baby's say cause muma arm oh it hurts my heart more I just won't my old life back. So reason for page is to help with everyday bills an medical costs to have 1less worry of how il get gas money to go hand therapy or boys sat rugby to do brake pAds on car instead trying not use as much as sqweeling to get new tyres instead seconds to get my baby's a extra uniform instead 1set n try wash btween week an dry as no dryer before next day. To pay school accounts tec fees paper costs instead dodging them n that call iv never asked for help left home at 13 3kids by 19 now 5 solo mum none fathers round to help I don't smoke or drink bye my slf pure benessentails an put everything back toward kids n house. Cars going die any day powers 287.77 in red schools wanting money kids needing winter where's need home heating no fireplace can't aford heaters so early bed times keep warm. Thank you if you've made it to here I really apreciate you read my profile an even if don't donate please google crips an read up on the horrible dease it is . Much thanks to all yours sinserly..

Elisha.