Survived half of my life, trapped in Domestic Violence, only to find out I have Cancer. I NEED YOUR HELP PLEASE x

Battaling without the consistancy and delays in NZs health system.

How is it that most services if not all close down over the christmas period. Yet people are still sick 7 days a week 365 days a year there is no holiday there is no break. Not only this but our public health system is way way behind much more so than ever before' when you are can have letters advising that there can be a 40 week wait to have procedures c medical professionals and I'm a cancer patient. Let's not even forget it currently is over 3 weeks to see my GP upon calling today for an appointment I was advised that would be around the 3rd of February. I'm on a benefit I can't afford a any who will then gone ambulance and take me to hospital at a cost of around $100 so when I weigh up the cost plus the wait time and then inefficiency in lack of persistence to actually find what the medical problem is or could be I might as well wait 3 weeks to see my GP and be comfortable at least mentally at home.

Unfortunately I have been going downhill slowly and having a lot of fools/blackouts with severe oedema in my legs. I have not been able to run a proper feed in well over 6 months plus the lake of nutrients the scores is and india shoes i am having was my abdominal feeding tube.

I have been weighing up the decision of somewhat quality over quantity due to the treatment I have been receiving full stop the only people who are outstanding are the nurses from Pukekohe hospital who come for home visits and the blood test lady who comes to do my bloods now they are just amazing at what they do but I should expect the same professionalism from my surgeon my GP oncology dietitians yes the huge cracks in the Pavement seem to be where many patients including myself fall into. Kovid should not be an excuse anymore. The delays in appointments treatment a life-changing and I mean that literally.

I am currently waiting at the decision about going to the media to bring awareness to my situation to reach more people as I'm in need of help. Not being able to work forward 9 funded medication to start with increase in petrol prices the cost for parking everyday living expenses Rising GP bills blister pack cost just to have my medicine in a system that I can take it safely full stop these are $8 for one week just to be put in the blister pack.

I will get better with my updates i am apologize sometimes and they're connection be a week or even a month but i forget living in constant pain and also still fear from my DV situation suffering severe PTSD is just a horrific combination.

All I can do is pray that I reach people and this is not who I am I hate asking for help so the fact that I'm asking means I really need help. I'm not getting buy on weekly expenses let alone medical expenses let alone the other things I have listed that are desperately needed. Christmas this year didn't even exist apart from a roast chicken that I couldn't eat full stop no decorations no present a holiday. Even if I had a proper bucket list I wouldn't be able to try as I can't even afford a holiday I break something distracting and beautiful preferably for me that is the ocean. I don't remember the last time I put my feet in the water. I'm going to start beer as I'm getting myself emotional. If you take the time to read this I appreciate you. Donations shares of my givealittle page and prayers and well wishes are most welcome. Also my love to anyone who reads this and is also going through their own situations prayers positivity be with you.

Regard the shadow of my former self

Sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes as I have to use speak to text due to numbness in my hands